Self-Love Crap

Loving God is the work to do. Loving God, our Creator, is the best way to love ourselves. We do not need all the self- love crap. It feeds the emptiness inside whereas loving God reveals His true love if us to us for us. The best way to heal is truth, and truth is only in God and studying His Word. Loving God leads us to love ourselves the true, deep way and to love others the same. And that is truth. Love God and study the Bible/truth. Then you see His true love and beautiful identity of you. Then there is healing and true love. God is always the answer to any problem.❤

Being Yourself

Being yourself involves your Maker. He made you with certain gifts and traits. Never try to be more than you are, different than you are or less than you were designed to be or you will not have peace. Aceept your Maker’s perfection of design in you and bask in contentment of His wisdom in making you just as you are. And because He loves you so much, love yourself too, love Him back and love others. And that simple truth and working philosophy of life is the key to contentment and peace and beauty/glory in your life now and into eternity. God is most important. Then be yourself for Him.❤

The Focus on Self is Limitting

When you focus only on yourself, you limit your solution, thoughts, wisdom, etc to that which you already possess. Deeper reflection on self will never change that. You are then as far as you can go.

When you serve others, ponder God, read His Word, speak to others, you can learn infinitely more and grow in leaps and bounds in eternal ways. ❤

Awareness

People speak if self-awareness. I see this as a piece of the puzzle, but a small one really. We are one of billions on this planet, weak, prone to sin, prone to be proud and self-centered. Should our goal really be to be more self-aware?? Seems comical. Ok, I am here. The best I can say is that I am made by God on purpose with love and I am saved by Jesus’ sacrifice and resurrection and God’s amazing grace. That is it. I can do what He has gifted me to do. I can make a difference with my tiny sphere of influence. We all can. It is the best awareness of self we can have.

What we need more of is not even awareness of the world around us. Though that is a loftier goal, caring for many and the big picture, it is still incomplete, depressing even, dark, horrible. There are more problems than we can count, very real dangers, ugliness, millions of other self- aware people not caring about anyone else, greed, rage, pride, pride, pride. So world- awareness is overwhelming (which is why self-awareness is the aspiration).

God- awareness is really the best goal. I am aware of God working, moving, being here. I see God’s hope and love in the midst of it all. I am aware of Jesus who gave His life and rose again for the world to have hope. He owns the hope for us all and is generous! Here should our awareness and focus of intention be. Jesus is our hope and everything we are or ever hope to be is His gift to us. Wow. That is magnificent.❤❤❤

Will Power

Born stubborn and with an extremely strong will, I assumed most of my life’s biggest struggles were defeated by my own strong will power. I firmly believed that. So much so that I actually prayed many times for God to help other people but helping me wasn’t necessary. “They need you, I’m good”. So foolish was I! Indeed, my greatest strength was realized when God allowed my will power to be broken down and me to humble my heart and realize I am weak but God is strong. What needs to be strong is always strong… God. My will power focuses the strength on me but humble prayer focuses me on God, the Winner. I attached the link for the new song for my kids tomorrow in worship God gave me for them if you are interested. Anyone may use it freely. “All we need is faith and a humble hearted prayer and God will answer us best”. https://youtu.be/u-Mj_VbFqYQ

Bettering vs Obeying

There is much celebrated emphasis on bettering yourself, self-love, self-awareness, all very self-centered. And while we are all very important, from the homeless beggar to the king on velvet, we are not the only person our lives should be about. I have felt lately that my greatest strength (and I am notably strong in many areas) is the decision to humbly obey and worship God. Humble obedience says the opposite of self-centeredness. It says I am not nearly as important as my Creator God and He deserves my respect and worship and the honor of humbly obeying His ideals for my life. He knows what is best for me and everyone and I trust Him completely. That humble obedience is stronger and more deeply fulfilling than a million people focusing on what greatness I may possess. The Creator is greater by a million times than the created. And that is true even though we are lovingly and purposely made and thus very important. Focus is the key. Knowing our God is phenomenally motivated. How beautiful He is is poured into His beautiful creation, seen all around us in soft landscapes, glorious sunsets and the beautiful souls of people of all ages, races, backgrounds, textures, passions, pursuits. The diversity of beauty He created should put God on the highest throne of the world, a place of high esteem and honor and of course love and respect. I serve an amazing, magnificent God. I am proud to be humble and obey and worship Him. That is worth the emphasis of my life. ❤❤❤

My Son’s Wisdom

A lot has happened in my mind since Daddy moved to Heaven. My ex refused to bring back my son so I had to rescue him tonight. I spent time talking to mom about dad and plans and arrangements. My husband had a birthday today. I played piano for worship at church this morning and God provided strength through tears. I am preparing for my daughter’s sixth birthday party tomorrow. And I took my Facebook and Twitter links off my phone. I am feeling regret at being an extrovert because everything is sorted out in my mind out loud and I am not thinking clearly so have alienated some people and I am so sorry about that. I have lost three loved people recently, and with ex’s drama, I am quite certain there is not much more I want to handle. I want to become an introvert but too much time alone make me crazy, though some recharges me. So I am talking to Zach (nearly 11 now) and he gives me profound insight and wisdom. I asked where he got it and he said from me and God. Amazed, let me share his thoughts. He said that we all have a little door on our hearts and we decide how thick the door is and how big the lock is. You open up your lock and door to few people but those people left so now you want to change the door into a wall to protect yourself from more pain. He said I would not be happy if I did make walls because God made me love people. He said to pick one or two close trusted friends and open the door a little and then close it. I do not know what I did right with this boy, but I am so grateful to God for him. And I will be gradually taking his advice because he is right. There is much wisdom and depth there. So please be understanding and gentle with me. I am in harm’s way and must retract a bit to survive and will be back soon. Love you.