I had a bizarre and pretty exhausting day today. I am certain you are quite interested in it lol. Thank God, I started it off with a fast 5-K walk (my knees told me I cannot jog anymore) and a long prayer with my God, how I love Him! Then came two audiologic consults, reminding me that I am a doctor and can still help people. Then lunch and home for ditch digging and dressing (with concrete and river rocks) continued. Cleaned up from that and headed to the pool with the kids then grabbed chicken for supper on the way home. Had to hit two gas stations for filling up the tank as the first station was out if gas. They are price gouging because of the hurricane (as bad as lawyers, benefitting from people’s terror) and should be penalized for it, but I digress. Then showers and now about to hit the sack. I am wiped out. However, I am still alive and healthy and at peace. You see, when I start the day with the Lord I love so very much who loves me, the whole day is set in the right tempo and peace and joy mix to allow all the things flying at me to not stick. It is like a good prayer life with God is a good grease that the crud flying at us cannot dig into or stick to. The peace and joy and hope remain in tact all day. That is the secret, friends. Even in ugliness and abuses and selfishness surrounding and threats of catastrophes, God holds me closer than I can hold Him and sustains, provides for, loves and nd protects me. It is beautiful. On the busiest days, calm prevails. Beautiful!! Thank you, God! ❤❤❤
Driving home from doing a consultation today, I passed many aggressive drivers, seemingly mad/bonkers/angry or on something and passed two accidents, which inconvenienced many. I yried to catch up on news and half of it was fake and the rest was bad. And I thought to myself, is the entire world mad now? Madness is everywhere. Serious turmoil you can feel is all around us on every side. But I have a secret. I want to tell you because I believe you would want to know. This secret is where I have found that madness ceases and peace and joy and love reign supreme and are not even touched by the madness. You ready for my secret, my fortress of solitude? It is somewhere you can carry with you. It is Jesus. His name is sweet to say and powerful to use. It is like a powerful sword that is really made of solidified honey. Speaking to God in prayer with Jesus’ name is my secret spot. No one can ever take it away, no one even knows you go there unless you tell them and absolutely anything may be discussed there, the throne of God, my Heavenly Father. That is it. My secret is now your secret. Madness ceases in God’s presence for He outguns it. Anger melts away, mourning hearts are comforted. He is coming soon and I am ready and want everyone to be ready. ❤
The more I think of things I could brag about, like my extraordinary laugh and love of life, I immediately thank God who made me this way. When I want to brag about my intelligence, I know God who gave it to me can take it away anytime He wishes and is Himself about a trillion times smarter than I. When someone compliments my piano playing or joy while playing or amazing dance moves (lol), I have to tell them God gave me that ability and many have far more and actually practice (little confession there lol). When I am complimented on my great sense of humor, I cannot take credit for God gave it to me and His is way better. I mean have you really studied a sloth? So, for me, I am good at stepping forward and am fearless about being on stage to talk, speak, play or sing or whatever but that is also a gift from God of faith. Then really I am just doing what I am given to do by God and that requires His constant allowance and grace on me. And I have found the secret. The trick that makes me so successful at what I do and who I am is not a perfect life, I did not ever have one of those and since dating, men put me down constantly (way to go, men). The secret is not a perfect life or pretending you have one. The secret of success and seeming perfection is at the first sign of problems, drop everything and surrender. Get down on my knees immediately and humble myself before God. I admit freely that I am nothing without God who made every inch of me. So I tell Him I need His help and beg Him to help me. I am shameless. I am actually a little proud to have finally figured it out but that also was a gift from God. So you see, nothing on me is mine, not even my life! All I am or own is God’s. So humble is easy with that perspective. Totally opposite what the world rams down our faces. To be perfect you do not have to look perfect or act perfect or have a perfect facade and mask on, you simply have to be perfectly humble. God can flow and do more through you than you could dream of doing or controlling or forcing alone. All that is bunk and and distraction. God is it. He is! Humble yourself and give it up to God and pray. I dare you. It works. It is a great secret, my great secret. God saves through Jesus Christ and heals and protects and nd strengthens and provides, any and everything good is from Him. Be perfectly humble and pray and see what delights come from it, cool things like peace and joy and beauty in nature and so on. It is well worth the experiment. 🙂
Everyone longs to be loved. No, that’s not it. Everyone longs to feel loved. Yes, that’s deeper. You can be loved by someone without feeling loved at all or much. People sometimes live their entire lives that way. Other people have been pushed so low that they don’t even love themselves anymore. My husband’s ex coworker just killed himself the other day. He for some reason saw no hope, felt no love, didn’t love himself enough to try again or continue living. This is horrific. A life lost. Children and spouse mourning. Tragic. So, in keeping with my longing in life to help heal people and show my love to whomever crosses my path, I offer a secret. It is the fantastic secret to how to love yourself, the you inside that is you, the eternal you. Here is the secret. Ready? Here it is. Love and focus on God. That is the secret. How does this work? When we focus on us, we can only love ourselves until we start seeing all the blaring flaws we all have and our poor eyesight compares our seen flaws with others’ unseen-by-us ones and voila, disaster. We end up more dissatisfied, less worthy of our love. Or the opposite can happen that we see no flaws at all and feel we deserve all the happiness in the world (thank you, all the sadistic marketers of the world) and then are dissatisfied when others don’t treat us perfectly, as is our right for breathing or something. Dissatisfaction leads to lower self-worth. So, to love ourselves better, we must go to the source of who made us, which is of course God. Studying the perfect Maker of the vessel brings greater appreciation to the vessel. Consider the old story of an antique violin. It is seen as junk, the auctioneer starts the bid low and goes lower. The master of the violin walks up, picks it up and begins playing it masterfully with great love and passion. As he puts it down, the audience in awe, the auctioneer begins again at 1,000 times the value and continues upward. The difference was not in the violin but in the Master. We are like that violin. Compared to some, we may not have much going for us. Even the talented will always find someone more talented than they. However, we have an incredible loving, brilliant Master. When we study Him, we marvel at what He purposefully made with great love and care. We can love ourselves, our inner essence, to much greater affect when we feel the love of our Maker. Then our love is His love, our life is His life. Nothing is more beautiful than that.
Openness. The key to purity is living your life as an open book. I heard a quote today I have been reflecting on, “Something done secretly is sorcery.” I dismissed the quote at first but the more I pondered it, chewed on it, I realized there is much truth there. When you think no one is looking, like you are in incognito mode or passwords are up or you are alone in your office or car, you have a draw, an excitement that is no longer in check and is much more easily given into. Not just porn or sexual impurity but also stealing from the office or drinking when you shouldn’t or gossiping or worrying to distraction or whatever purity/sin issue you have fallen for in the past (because that is where you’ll be attacked again). The key is really to live your life in the open as much as humanly possible. Keep your door open. Don’t have a password. Welcome people coming in at odd times. Invite people over. Keep busy. Actually do your work. The main point is that when you go into secret mode, the enemy has you right where he wants you and you are his dupe again. Knowledge is power. Know the enemy’s methods and you can defend yourself. Don’t allow a surprise attack. Remain out in the open and you are much more able to resist being pulled somewhere you think is safe to sin. Because you are always an open book to God. There is no secret place from Him. The enemy can’t even hide from Him. So, He always knows when you’re screwing up, even if no one else does. So, purity is admitting that and saying that you don’t want any distractions to come between my relationship and prayer life with God. Live open, like you are an open book, and I tell you the purity will be there and you will win the victory over sin and distraction and walk in sweeter friendship with the all mighty and loving God of the universe. And He who is always faithful to you will reward you for being faithful to Him. And you will sleep deeper and feel great!