Those who know me through life trials, know that when I go through really bad stuff that tries and humbles and changes me, I change something and the deepest wounds produce a haircut. This one, however, was only a couple inches off to a below the shoulder bobbed cut. To me, it signals a change. Lesson learned and I got it and grew and time to move on. Deep wounds don’t make the reasoning so quickly and some short cuts are from mourning grief more than resolve but I know God always gets me there. I am teachable. Not always easily so. So no I am b undertaking a peaceful challenge, a new forced resolve I had not counted on so quickly, a concession in my soul, a huge change. And this haircut is making peace with my new lot in life. And where it would have depressed me a year or two ago, now it is the most natural course in the world. I had a good run and God will sustain me through this challenge. And I see what I have to give up as a sacrifice to draw closer in dependence to God. I have always believed that life is what we make of it and our perspective changes everything for better or worse. Since we cannot change some things, better to find the blessing and rock on. Life is about the journey, baby. Kicks ya around sometimes, but what a beautiful ride.😄❤
I will not say what particularly it was, but recently I had quit. I had given up the idea of something in particular that I humbly gave up to the Lord as an offering to Him. I said in essence, “This isn’t happening again so I accept that you are enough and I give it up to You. I quit and am fine with that. I trust You.” And that was that, so I thought. But evidently God had different plans or honored my humility or something because today He saw fit to provide that very thing to me. And it goes to show you that sometimes in the giving something up to God, He honors that and gives back more. I believe He wants to know we are fully prepared and fully willing to give up everything for Him and He honors that, rewards it even. God is so real and alive and working in me and so many I know that walk with Him faithfully and meaningfully. It is so very beautiful. Praise God! May the whole earth praise His holy name!❤
I tell you, the more I live life and study it, the more I am convinced that people are human. There is certainly an ethereal beauty to our persons, a sort of exquisite essence about each of us, each unique but each and every one quite adept at having our pride rise within us at the least imposition and comment. We each have the most beautiful of potential and courage but are severely human in form. We may have spirits that soar at times, but your body has sincere limitations. We may have epic generosity but are limited with what we have to give away. My conclusion is that we are not of “good” character and can not be while in our human form. Severe statement? Let’s explore it. God is good. “Good” is His character, His makeup. “Good” is consistency of character (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control) and generosity of help despite any environmental occurrences. “Good” is helping and treating someone well no matter what. It is consistency of treatment of other people. We are told that by Jesus Himself in the Bible. He even said that He was not good, and I am thinking I may understand now why. In bodily form, we are so rely limited. We can not do everything we want to. God can because He is not limited by anything. In human form also, we sin and usually the culprit is pride. Goodness is being loving despite the person on the other end of it deserving it. So, when we are wronged or harmed in any way, our pride rears up its ugly head and we respond somehow. Even the greatest of said ts had moments of severe conflict. No one but God is able to control themselves enough to be unmoved entirely by outside forces of evil directed against us. Goodness is also providing wherever there is a need and where God owns everything because He made it, we only own what He entrusts to our care. We can ask Him for more, but we may or may not be deemed worthy of more trust. So, we cannot provide what everyone in our path needs. Indeed, it often feels like we need a little more to make it. We also as humans have a hormonal and thus emotional element that limits our goodness at times. Someone reacting to hormones plus life situations rarely convey goodness as the first response. It may or may not happen down the line. So, understanding we can never truly be good, though we can have moments of goodness or even greatness of character, we must wonder why try to be good. (And here I must say that we can be very good when we allow the Holy Spirit to run our lives and bodies in humble contrition all the time. This fruit of the Spirit will get stronger within us as we practice but perfection will never occur in human form.) When we try to be good, treat people undiscriminately and well within the best of our ability, we do much more good than harm. Just because you are not perfect at something doesn’t mean you should give up. When you were a baby, you couldn’t walk but with growth and practice and help, you got better and better at it. And goodness is not what saves us. Now this is important. If goodness were what is needed to be saved and head to heaven someday to be with our Creator, it would be impossible for us because of the above humanity arguments. No, Jesus Christ needed to and did come down to pay the sacrifice for our sins so we would be saved. Trying to be good is not to earn salvation. Salvation only comes through accepting Jesus as our Savior. We try to be good to present our witness to the world that we are saved and thankful to be. We do our best because we have been beautifully saved and loved and we want to share that with others. We are filled with love so we try to show love. And God expects it s to do our best with what we have. If we do that, He is pleased and that is our goal.
When we plan things out, I think God looks at our plans and smiles and gently scoots them off the playing field to unfold His plan for our lives in stages we can handle. His plans may be most uncomfortable to us at the time, and the breaking of ours just as painful, but in my experience His plans are always best… for Him and His kingdom first and foremost and for us too because He truly loves us more than a natural being can. I love making plans and pursuing those and I realize that so does God, only His are way better for us. Not only that but He can change course midstream on the fly in response to our disobedience and alter those plans and have them turn out even better. He can always bring good out of bad. Sometimes we just have to be patient enough to fully appreciate those plans. People may love someone and want to be with them and have the timing all wrong and the single desperado must wait for God’s timing. So, be patient and wait because God is always worth waiting for. He has His reasons. When we push and shove and force things to happen, I think he must look down and shake His head at our ignorance and frown at our pride. He knows best and He knows that He knows best. Some people may be sent into your life to test you or make you stronger in some way. The very best thing you can do is surrender immediately and learn the lesson, do the right thing. As soon as you learn the lesson and pass the test, it “magically” disappears. Again, God always knows what needs to be done and when and why. We don’t know all that and need to let the Professional handle the planning. The happiest people in the world are those who roll with the punches, who go with the flow, as long as it is God’s punches and flow. To surrender pride is an amazingly beautiful and freeing experience that I am getting in the habit of enjoying. I don’t have to do everything as long as I do what I can to the best of my ability.