My Mom

My mom and I have had a lot of great moments and a lot of very strained moments all my life. When Daddy died, our relationship began to mend, mostly because we shared a mourning process. And I knew we are her only family here. And God has been working on my heart. Altogether, our relationship has become much more docile and close. And I am thankful for my mom. I know most people are thankful for their mom but I had abuses to overcome, to forgive. And with God’s help, we are healing. And I tell you all this because it is never too late to mend a heart. Never. God does not ever do “never”. I believe he sees the word as a dare. Lol But remember that our God is eternal and time means little to Him. So your “never” is comical and my “never” was just me lacking faith and believing lies and very comical. And God opened my eyes and allowed His love to pour into my heart and soul and mend its broken places. Again. It never gets old to Him and there is never too much attention to detail He heaps upon us in showing us personal love and healing for every layer of it. Do not give up. Give up your “never”.❤

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Isaiah 57:15-19

Isaiah 57:15. ‘For this is what the high and exalted One says— he who lives forever, whose name is holy: “I live in a high and holy place, but also with the one who is contrite and lowly in spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the contrite. 16. I will not accuse them forever, nor will I always be angry, for then they would faint away because of me— the very people I have created. 17. I was enraged by their sinful greed; I punished them, and hid my face in anger, yet they kept on in their willful ways. 18. I have seen their ways, but I will heal them; I will guide them and restore comfort to Israel’s mourners, 19. creating praise on their lips. Peace, peace, to those far and near,” says the Lord. “And I will heal them.”‘

Today I Touched the Past

Today I touched the past, I played the song and it did not harm me. The flow of music from times past wafted over my soul and yet I walk on unscathed. I walked beneath the fountain of its ancient flow and am uncrippled. I saw that which had been left in the past and restored and basked in its current value and allowed the remainder to stay behind. I have moved on but some people and friendships are worth the effort to sustain. There comes a time when walking forward when one heals enough to return for what was valuable and leave the damage alone. Some friendships are not worth that effort but some certainly are. Today I reclaimed my friend. She is worth it. My heart is content and happy and peace and joy remain intact. God is so good.❤

American Solidarity

We all need to support American solidarity. We have a looming threat from North Korea, and the prevalent vicious attempt at division  and distraction from mainstream tv, news and Hollywood owners/dictators. We have evil demons and principalities trying to kill as many of us as possible and divide and conquer. We used to be protected by God because we obeyed Him. Now many many Christians are comfortable, lethargic, lazy, sleeping, laxidasical, lukewarm and evil is gaining ground. This sickens me for I love our country. Our rights and freedoms are unprecedented and we need to be thankful and appreciative to God for this and serve and obey Him in return for these blessings and beg Him to restore and unite us, punish all evil, drain the seamp, and rebuild and restore. Christians need to wake up and pray and serve God. We need to unite and defy the evil billionaires who think they are in charge and punish them for their evil. We need to take back America for God and support our good President and his good staff. The riff raff in politics need to be vote out and they need to represent the people and not their own pocketbooks. Eternity and eternal judgment has no preference for worldly power or riches. That stuff dies here. Money is temporary. Power is temporary. God and eternity is forever. We need to work together for our souls and our country for God!!! Spread the word!❤

Creator God

I believe the greatest lie that Satan started and has used for generations now successfully is the lie of evolution, and in so doing taking the Majesty, Glory, Beauty, Love and Power away from God as Creator for those who buy into that crap. The religion being forced down the students’ and public’s throat is the biggest pile of hooey in existence. It is ridiculous and impossible that we slowly made ourselves and became more complex. Leave things alone in nature and what happens? More complexity? No, of course not. Things degrade, break down. I am a doctor and many times in college was reprimanded, put down, penalized with a lower grade for not supporting that moronic agenda. It is so ridiculous. They think people are too stupid to think for themselves and too lazy to want to. And they try to make it seem plausible by adding billions of years to it! Ha!! Put the parts of a watch on the ground and wait billions of years. Will the completed, fully functioning and powered watch be ready to go when you get back in a couple billion years? Really? We need to think, people. God made us good minds that can think. God made the mountains. God made the sun. Think of that for a minute. He made it. He made the power source for our galaxy. God made birds that sing and fly, reptiles, insects for pollenation, chinchillas because they are cute, mammals, marsupials for something different, sea creatures, trees, flowers, everything. God did all that, in full color and sound and reproducing perfect offspring to perpetuate itself. And God made us. That is no mistake. We are not by any stretch of the imagination powerful enough to make any of it, especially our own selves. It is plain foolish to believe that noise. And dangerous, because God IS powerful enough to make all this. So He is powerful enough to withdraw from supporting it if we are so bad and against Him as to piss Him off. Of course He is loving and gives grace for now. But we need to get our acts together and start doing what He wants. God can restore. He can heal. He wants to. Draw close to Him and keep doing so. Pray, read your Bible, return to our country’s spiritual roots, to creation’s spiritual roots. ❤

Calls You Get Too Late

When there is a tryout for a team or job interview or broken relationship with someone you love or a broken friendship or whatever the case may be and you don’t get that affirmative call from the other person when the ball is in their court, sometimes they have a change of heart and realize their mistake but call too late. Either your number has changed or you have moved or your heart is decidedly alone or what have you. But restoration is God’s business and forgiveness is ours. We can and must forgive and move on. We must ask their forgiveness if we have access to them and ask God’s forgiveness also. God restores. He restores peace if unity is no longer possible but we must do our part and leave the rest in God’s capable, loving hands.

Back to Life After Death

I could have said “resurrected” but that is much too important a word spiritually, but it is sort of. Let me explain. I was dead for a while, having undergone vital losses at once, of course the most valuable being my daddy, and I was in a bit of a spiritual slump as well. Caretaking and watching the decline of the most important person throughout my whole life plus the whole rest of life is a challenge for even the most energetic and driven of us. There are human limitations on this superwoman after all. Lol And I withdrew from society after the Memorial services were over and I don’t remember most of it all. I left Facebook, Instagram, contacted as few people as possible, left a text me if you need me sign and hunkered down at home with my little family, going out when needed or when the kids needed and living quietly and cried a whole heck of a lot more than during my entire life before that. And meanwhile, God was drawing me to Himself and to my family and especially to my good husband who I had neglected during it all, poor love. And I can say that I am emerging from my cacoon a different but still recognizable person and in a few healthy months my superwoman cape should fit again and I will obey God with all my heart and take amazing care of my husband and family, practice more, write another book, record more original songs (my hubby bought me a new keyboard for such a thing), paint more, gig well and more and have fun in life. And most importantly, God is my number one priority as He is of far greater importance in life than anything else. He revived me and I give credit solely to Him in healing me and reviving me to life again. I had nothing left and He never left me alone and loved me back to life. What a mighty God we serve!!!