Old Enough to Know

I am old enough to know that I could be a grandma now and yet I am a momma to a 9 year old.

I am old enough to know that even if I live to be an old age of 80, she will be in her 40’s when she experiences the loss of me. And if the Lord takes me sooner, she will be all the younger.

So I am old enough to know that I need to prepare her to rely on God for comfort and herself for taking care of herself with God.

I am old enough to know that my greatest gift and provision possible for my children is to exemplify and teach and train them to draw close to God and have that relationship with the perfect Heavenly Father who loves them even more than I can.

I am old enough to know that now matters and eternity matters. So I will love my children by teaching and showing them a beautiful relationship with Christ and I will have done the best I possibly can for them and also for God.😄❤

Fasting Prayers

I will be praying and fasting tomorrow (Friday). I implore any of you friends who really love the Lord to join me. And if you cannot fast for some reason, please pray with me during meal times. So we are on the same page, my prayers will be:

1. Please purify my soul and my family’s soul and wash us clean by the blood of the Lamb Jesus Christ. Please forgive our sins and renew our strength and purity with the Holy Spirit so we may be in your presence and pray and fast today.

2. The Lord’s Prayer (Matthew 6), with emphasis on “Please, dear Lord, may your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”

3. Please may Your prayer warriors be strengthened and focused to pray and fast for your good to triumph over the enemies’ evil.

4. Please protect and strengthen our President Trump and all those officials doing good and please give them wisdom, knowledge, understanding and favor with You and man. May those who have done evil be caught and prosecuted and be found guilty and punished to the fullest extent of the law. Please allow this to change their hearts to repentance and salvation.

5. Please help our country defund and abolish abortion and injustice so you will forgive and bless our country as a whole. Please provide for and help the orphans and widows. Let us not pass by our brothers and sisters unmoved but help them with Your love and empathy, knowing You adopted us as well and provide for us.

6. Please allow people to be released from their addictions to tech and social media/phones and pleasure addictions which have become their idols. Please release and help them so they are ready when you come soon for your church.

7. Please purify your church and strengthen her to prayer and fasting and worship together. Destroy the evil within her and cast out demons who have infiltrated. Help your church to remember her job of missions, winning souls for your kingdom, worshipping You. Please help and strengthen and bless Your persecuted church around the world.

8. Please save as many as you can from the clutches of Satan and soften their hearts to Jesus Christ as their Lord for their eternal soul’s sake.

9. Please strengthen and heal my friends and family for prayer and prepare their hearts and souls for your coming.

10. Please keep the demons and evil ones who have chosen to worship them from being effective in the evil they want to do. Stop their plans, dear Lord, and protect us. May all the evil plans come to ruin and be hindered and useless and may You, Lord, and Your angels win every battle.

11. We love and pray for Israel. We pray for her peace and that the Jews will realize that Jesus is their Messiah and be saved. Praise be the God of Israel. Please bless her.

12. We worship you, dear Jesus. We give you praise, honor due you and adore your glory. You are worthy of all our love and adoration and worship. You are holy and true.

In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.❤❤❤

Cleaning Up

As my son vacuumed the inside of the house, my daughter and I scrubbed thr fence and cleaned up the area. Then I sprayed sealer on the fence because that needed to be done. Also, I cleaned up the wall fountain and rehung that. It all took a while. And there was an interruption of church band practice (that started 30 minutes late).

What is my point?

Cleaning up takes a lot of time and energy. Keeping something clean takes less time but n sometimes is less practical. But either way, cleaning up yields great rewards and feels good afterward. And it was great to all work together as a family. Teamwork with active conversations with my kids was priceless. And we were able to pray together. (And I got to hear from my Aunt Rosie, which always makes my day.) And frankly, I am proud of my kids for their ability to look people in the eye and have a long conversation. I see so many kids who never have to pitch in and can’t get away from tech to even make eye contact or converse intelligently. Not a slam against kids trained badly but parents who don’t bother to train their kids.

We all have a past but today is our responsibility. What happened before does not have to be repeated or defeating. Just today choose to clean up. Just do it. Pull whoever you can into service with you and it will do all involved the world of good.

Do today beautifully. One day at a time live just for that day and always for God.😄❤

My Take on Modern vs Pre-Modern Feminism

Being a middle-aged (what an ugly word!) woman, who is a Christian, a doctor, a mother, a wife, a pianist, a singer/songwriter, band leader/manager, an artist and a teacher, among other things, I am qualified to speak of “feminism”. In addition, my mom is a pre-modern feminist. She, like most Pre-Modern feminists, believed a woman had rights, like the right to vote, work, hold office, go to school for any profession, manage money, etc. I think most people who support the dignity of human life believe these rights are intrinsically valuable for all people no matter what gender or heritage. Jesus Christ held every person as equal and our country in law has done so since its infancy, despite the upholding of those rights as more recent an event. But I digress.

This new modern feminism, however, is much different. It has mutated from God-given equality to a prideful sort of superiority that rather disgusts rather than insights respect. It has become a right to kill your own baby in your protected womb, the right to put good men down, the right to get a job before a man does just because of gender and not merit, a rage at anything resembling housewives, even if it is theirchoice, etc. It is unnatural and divisive, a tool of the enemy.

We need to get back to swing the pendulum back to a normalcy, a picture of the value of women in the home to manage and nurture, to carry and raise children as designed, to encourage and support our husbands and parents, to foster love and peace in the home, to work at what we do with care and emphasis on improvement.

We are all responsible for the roles God gave us in His wisdom and love. And we will answer to Him how well we performed them. 😄❤

I Don’t Cry Anymore (except when empathizing)

Now, since my Daddy died two years ago, I have not.been able to help but cry if someone is crying- real life or on tv/movies. It is just a new thing now where I can empathize with people’s heartache. That is honestly new to me since these last two years. I felt the deepest pain of my life and I now feel other people’s pain. Even if I had felt it before I never cried. I can probably count on one hand how many times I cried growing up. Just not a crier before. So it is a new thing when I see other’s heartache.

Now, for me, I do not cry, not since I came out of the sobbing wet depression a year ago. After Daddy died, I cried for a year straight about and was depressed and really selfish. I know I had a family to look after and did so mechanically but wounded my children in the process and am still rebuilding that. But selfishly, I was stuck for a year in rich grief. Grief n is normal but letting it take over my life was selfish of me, in my case.

Since I snapped out of the depression with God’s help, I have worked hard on rebuilding (God’s specialty) and have only cried since then when I have seen someone cry, but not for me, just for them and their sake and pain, to help. I get it. I understand their pain. I lived it.

I believe sometimes for other people, you can help them more.by crying with them than any amount of advice or well wishes. But as far as we go, we focus on the wrong thing personally when crying. God comforts those who mourn but also rewards those who obey. Now hear me in love… Awfully hard to serve God and others when constantly thinking of what we lost. We do better at our eternal work when we are grateful for what we have left. Re-read that and you will be glad you did. Prayer and pleasing God in obedience is the option. 😄❤