Not Sure When It Happened

A lot I do remember, some is still fuzzy, and I have lost the memories of many a tumultuous year. And I have forgotten many deep wounds and remember others still (although the pain has been replaced by scars dripping with forgiveness), lots I appreciate and many great little moments worked in. I remember many guys, which led me to the decision that either most guys are selfish or more likely that I have not exhibited great wisdom in the past choosing guys, which is far more likely (or maybe 50/50 with college guys of which I am referring). And somewhere along this 43 year trek of road along this journey, not even sure of exactly when, but I believe God has tamed me. Through suffering and moments of glory, God has melted this wild girl into some semblance of a tame but strong, Godly woman. That is certainly not to brag, I am not sure if I know of many more humble, but it is to say that God is a miracle worker because me being tame is a miracle and only God could do that. I have been a fighter rebel, proud and strong, defending the weak (and me too) most of my life, living free and wild by hook or crook, desperate for adventure and attention and a kind word from anyone, no matter what it took to get one. And God shaped that sad soul into the woman I am, His little girl grown up to be momma to many. And that is why God is my Champion, my Lord and Master, my Savior, my Father and my Friend. He made me, I blew it, and He remade me. What story is more beautiful? Any that go like that. God is everything, friends. Don’t neglect Him for He does not neglect us. He is for us.❤

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The Journeys in a Day

Some days can take you through many journeys within their span. Today I walked 2 miles, swept the porch, cleaned a room, nursed a daughter fighting a cold back to health, vacuumed, we killed a dead old bed (from too much jumping oy) and assembled a new trundle bed without instructions or hardware, a different we played tennis and swam, had two meals and preset the third to begin while we were swimming, prepared the songs for tomorrow, and now finally can work on the quilt. Busy day, feels like we lived two days in this day. Busy day. Many journeys. Many moods waded through also, my emotional family. So tomorrow will be a quiet day, church and rest and quilt. Balance is so important and I feel out of balance now so will rest tomorrow. I believe when you don’t get it right, we can get it right as soon as we decide we want to and tomorrow will be more balanced. God is so hood and allows redemption even in small things like overpopulation a day. 😄❤