The decisions we make change our present and our future. Imagine how different our lives would be if we never made that bad decision or stuck to our original plans or said no to that costly detour or any myriad of decision changes or detour options. I wonder about this. I believe I would be a physician and probably run an inter-city free clinic with a huge family full of foster kids and adopted kids. This was my dream before men detoured me (my fault, not theirs- don’t think me deceived now). But I think we all have a God-given plan that we can follow or not follow. So then, when we figure this all out from another place entirely at a later time, is it too late? Have we ruined it? Well, here is the answer I believe to be true. God looks at the heart. Our heart can get off course but it can also humbly obey and thus be beautiful to Him. And wherever we end up, our heart is still His focus. Do you love me now? Do you want to obey now? Are you humble and worshipping now? If so, God will give you a new vision, goal, dream, purpose that will help His people or worship Him. And we must ask forgiveness and move forward in obedience. God is way bigger than you having one chance to get it right or He’s finished with you. There is only one way to be saved eternally through Jesus, but everything else is flexible. God can use what you have gone through for a new, richer, deeper purpose. Don’t beat yourself up. God sure doesn’t. When you and forgiveness, it is now invisible, gone, ancient history. Be His child now. Right now, humbly worship Him, pray, read your Bible, His Word. Obey. Right where you are, be a light for Him and love people. The now matters a million times more than the past, as long as you have humbly asked forgiveness and turned away from bad decisions. That is truth. Hope is now and future.❤
Every horrible, slightly uncomfortable, noteworthy, pleasant, beautiful, ugly, amazing, incredulous, etc. thing that has ever happened to me is over. The moment, the days, the weeks all passed. They are gone. Only the now remains. The future is not guaranteed except our eternity in Christ. That is secure. We have lived through every day and every experience up to now. We have suffered, laughed, mourned, celebrated, all of it. But now is who we are because of or in spite of all that has happened. Now is proof of our learning from the past or deciding to relive it, did we learn or did we remain as we were? Was there good as a result in the proud person standing in front of the mirror or shame and impede nice of growth that you wonder if so much damage can be repaired? Or worse, are you so distracted you are lethargic to it all living like a sort of fleshy robot? I ponder things like this about myself now. I believe what purposeful choices I make now if done right would result in maturity and growth and strength and wisdom, with God’s help. I think if done wrong may damage my relationship with God and threaten my future. I believe we all have this free will choice but like it or not we face the consequences of our own decisions we make. Is momentary pleasure worth shaming the name of Christ, throwing what He an suffered for under the bus and dishonor in Him? Or should the decisions I make be purposeful to worship Him and honor His name? It is deep. It is the decision right now. In ten minutes I will have the same decision. In two hours I have the same decision to make. But right now is all I know I have so right now I will decide that forever with God is more important than any momentary pleasure that is gotten in His stead. Tomorrow’s are gone and their decisions gone. The beautiful thing about God is He goes by what decision you make now. He is less concerned about past mistakes than you might think. “Now, this decision, is the important one. I choose to worship God.” That statement should be tattooed on us, imprinted on us, put everywhere in the house for it will always each and every time be the important truth of the right decision. To heck with the past. Go from right now. “Right now, I will honor God and not me.”
I hate New Year’s resolutions. Mostly because I am a much better starter than finisher in general and I am a strong proponent of honesty. In addition, there is little value in sudden moral initiatives set upon a certain day other than right now. The idea of suddenly being good in some arena to me diminishes somehow the necessity to be good in that arena now. If it is good, be that now, do it here onward, there is no magic in a certain day. So, now that you have my philosophy in hand, I am most definitely a proponent of initiating a forward, good, positive momentum in life starting right now. I have suffered to varying degrees for the last while with unresolved past issues. I have had one eye forward and one eye back. Not only is this crazy to look at and extremely uncomfortable, but it also prevents such a forward initiative. So, I have released the past to take care of itself after having done all I can do in the forgiveness department and I am onward to the present now with hopes that a greater future awaits me with the Lord. And God is big enough to help all this happen smoother and healthier and with much greater impact. And so here we go. Once I decided this, I have renewed hope and a really great feeling. My family can serve the Lord with renewed clarity and singleness of mind. It is beautiful!!! 🙂
I looked back for a minute. My yesterday’s were like a dream, sometimes a good one and sometimes a nightmare, but a dream it was. I have never had that ability some possess of living in their past, living yesterday’s as though they were todays. My very vivid imagination and very vivid visual mind and thinking are so busy with now that they very rarely function in real time with past memories. I remember them but I can count on one hand how many memories are vivid, most are dreamlike, like that weird fuzzy cloud surrounding them they used to use on sit coms of old. I have some friends who have the uncanny ability to be present in the past and that fascinates me. It seems their imagination and memory is just as vividly real in yesterdays, even many yesterday’s ago as it is today and they almost prefer to live there sometimes. It is amazing. Generally for me, out of sight is out of mind. Great for being fully present in any current situation but horrible for remembering to take medicine if someone put it in the cabinet. Lol. God made us all so different. Recent past of course linger for me but only carries on so long and then memories are dreamlike snippets of good or bad or indifferent clips that happened a long time ago. The depth of my soul hold the spirit, connects deeply with those I love and they are always with me but the specifics (which are always rather overlooked truth be told) fade out. And I have a friend who can remember specifics of an incident or conversation seventeen years ago at a certain time and date like it was yesterday. My jaw drops every time. Not only can I not remember most of the time, but I think I would go stark raving mad if I did, my mind is so busy all the time with current situations and loved ones’ problems and care. So here is the point. God makes people to have different areas of focus for different reasons and important duties in His kingdom. God expects us to help each other and work with the gifts we are given for Him and other people and our own sanity really. No one is any better than anyone else and we must accept these differences within each other and appreciate them because together we are fulfilling our innate drive and God’s plan for all of us. We are here to worship and serve God together not do a series of comparisons. We are each made perfectly by are perfect God for what He made us for. Let’s appreciate each other.
I live in the now. I remember the past very well with an excellent memory but do not live there. I plan for the future, God willing, and believe in being moderately prepared but I do not live there. I live in the now. Here. Right now. I live in the moment. Does that mean I don’t always pay attention to what I might be doing wrong that could cause something bad down some hypothetical road? Nope. Living now, right here, does not mean you are any more an idiot than someone always in the past or always in the future. See, it requires a great deal of faith to live right now and not worry about later. It takes a lot of forgiveness and God’s healing to not live in the past. But now, if I live right here and live life always conscientious of the way God wants me to live in love and truth, I am humbly walking with Him and can have a conversation with Him, all other distractions of past and future being limited. And right now is all we have at this moment. We can be closer to God if we use our minutes well and focus on Him and live life to the fullest in His arms and presence. Isn’t that the very best life we can live? I think so too. 🙂