Being Present Under False Pretenses

Just to be entirely honest, I recently became privy to a flaw within my being. I noticed that when I do not get adequate alone time to parse my thoughts and pray, I turn into a secret escape artist. I am present for my family but very much elsewhere simultaneously in thought and spirit. I have often been present under false pretenses. So I am aware of it now and confess and repent, determining (and off to a good start) to be better, be present. I used to be so good at that and I am getting it back. So, my strategy is to tell my family that I need some time so I walk the dog alone in the morning and pray and then I am available and actually fully present for them the rest of the day. And it is working. Cherish and be there for your family and you will notice a difference in their behavior. God is good!😄❤

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Christmas Blessing

The preparations are ready. More chocolate than should be consumed in one day will be consumed in one day. Jesus’ birthday cake is ready and iced. Cornish game hens are marinating. Presents are wrapped and ready for excited hands. Hustle and bustle are over until the morning. I sit alone in my bedroom and there is a hush, a calm, a peace, a joy. And it washes over me that Jesus’ birthday celebration is deeper than thanking Him for His birth but worshipping Him and thanking Him for what came after. Jesus was born on purpose as we all are, but His purpose was far greater than ours… saving the world. My Hero. Your Hero. And tomorrow I get to celebrate my Hero, Jesus. And here is my present for you…

I bless you in Jesus’ name, that you will know Him closer and deeper this year. May tomorrow be joyful and peaceful and richly meaningful and with Jesus in it right with you. May your heart be lifted to His kiss. ❤🎁🎄

Big Bundle of Memories

My Grandma Metzler was the most special and important woman in the world. And when she went to heaven a few years ago, part of me went with her really. She was a nurse and a missionary and loved the Lord with all her heart. Every conversation reflected that. Every song was for Him. Every piano note played was a tribute to Him. And as a profession in the states, she was a charge nurse for a state children’s hospital. She was amazing. She and my grandpa took my sister and I to high school and college plays and musicals, the Nutcracker Suite ballet, orchestras, camping, national parks, monuments, literary historic homes. She was rich with art appreciation and the love of literary classics as well as Christian works as well as all things Christian. And she was my biggest supporter, writing me letters all the time, coming to every recital or school play or church musical I was in. She was all nurse so wanted me to be all doctor. I became one because of her. She was right as always, but she was humble and gentle as she was super strong. And all these things and more raced through my eyes and escaped through my tear ducts as I perused the treasure my dear Aunt Rosie had sent me for Christmas just now. She sent her poems. I have my precious grandma’s poems. Oh, what a treasure! So, it may appear as though I had only received a few insignificant presents, but with this offering, I am way richer than anyone else. Thank you, God. And thank you for so many years with this incredible woman of yours.❤

Do What You Do

Whatever God puts on your heart to do, that desire that is what occupies your thoughts and emotions and yearnings of the heart that is wholesome and positive and uplifting. Chances are God has given you that employment to do. So do it. Don’t look back. I know from experience that looking back binds you to the past and keels you from the present and thr present is what we are responsible for. The future is eternal rewards or punishments for decisions and deeds done in the present. Do what you do now. Pray, prepare and go. God will help if you humbly ask Him. Every single time.❤

Original Plans vs Now

The decisions we make change our present and our future. Imagine how different our lives would be if we never made that bad decision or stuck to our original plans or said no to that costly detour or any myriad of decision changes or detour options. I wonder about this. I believe I would be a physician and probably run an inter-city free clinic with a huge family full of foster kids and adopted kids. This was my dream before men detoured me (my fault, not theirs- don’t think me deceived now). But I think we all have a God-given plan that we can follow or not follow. So then, when we figure this all out from another place entirely at a later time, is it too late? Have we ruined it? Well, here is the answer I believe to be true. God looks at the heart. Our heart can get off course but it can also humbly obey and thus be beautiful to Him. And wherever we end up, our heart is still His focus. Do you love me now? Do you want to obey now? Are you humble and worshipping now? If so, God will give you a new vision, goal, dream, purpose that will help His people or worship Him. And we must ask forgiveness and move forward in obedience. God is way bigger than you having one chance to get it right or He’s finished with you. There is only one way to be saved eternally through Jesus, but everything else is flexible. God can use what you have gone through for a new, richer, deeper purpose. Don’t beat yourself up. God sure doesn’t. When you and forgiveness, it is now invisible, gone, ancient history. Be His child now. Right now, humbly worship Him, pray, read your Bible, His Word. Obey. Right where you are, be a light for Him and love people. The now matters a million times more than the past, as long as you have humbly asked forgiveness and turned away from bad decisions. That is truth. Hope is now and future.❤

Gone are the Days

Every horrible, slightly uncomfortable, noteworthy, pleasant, beautiful, ugly, amazing, incredulous, etc. thing that has ever happened to me is over. The moment, the days, the weeks all passed. They are gone. Only the now remains. The future is not guaranteed except our eternity in Christ. That is secure. We have lived through every day and every experience up to now. We have suffered, laughed, mourned, celebrated, all of it. But now is who we are because of or in spite of all that has happened. Now is proof of our learning from the past or deciding to relive it, did we learn or did we remain as we were? Was there good as a result in the proud person standing in front of the mirror or shame and impede nice of growth that you wonder if so much damage can be repaired? Or worse, are you so distracted you are lethargic to it all living like a sort of fleshy robot? I ponder things like this about myself now. I believe what purposeful choices I make now if done right would result in maturity and growth and strength and wisdom, with God’s help. I think if done wrong may damage my relationship with God and threaten my future. I believe we all have this free will choice but like it or not we face the consequences of our own decisions we make. Is momentary pleasure worth shaming the name of Christ, throwing what He an suffered for under the bus and dishonor in Him? Or should the decisions I make be purposeful to worship Him and honor His name? It is deep. It is the decision right now. In ten minutes I will have the same decision. In two hours I have the same decision to make. But right now is all I know I have so right now I will decide that forever with God is more important than any momentary pleasure that is gotten in His stead. Tomorrow’s are gone and their decisions gone. The beautiful thing about God is He goes by what decision you make now. He is less concerned about past mistakes than you might think. “Now, this decision, is the important one. I choose to worship God.” That statement should be tattooed on us, imprinted on us, put everywhere in the house for it will always each and every time be the important truth of the right decision. To heck with the past. Go from right now. “Right now, I will honor God and not me.”

The Forward Initiative

I hate New Year’s resolutions. Mostly because I am a much better starter than finisher in general and I am a strong proponent of honesty. In addition, there is little value in sudden moral initiatives set upon a certain day other than right now. The idea of suddenly being good in some arena to me diminishes somehow the necessity to be good in that arena now. If it is good, be that now, do it here onward, there is no magic in a certain day. So, now that you have my philosophy in hand, I am most definitely a proponent of initiating a forward, good, positive momentum in life starting right now. I have suffered to varying degrees for the last while with unresolved past issues. I have had one eye forward and one eye back. Not only is this crazy to look at and extremely uncomfortable, but it also prevents such a forward initiative. So, I have released the past to take care of itself after having done all I can do in the forgiveness department and I am onward to the present now with hopes that a greater future awaits me with the Lord. And God is big enough to help all this happen smoother and healthier and with much greater impact. And so here we go. Once I decided this, I have renewed hope and a really great feeling. My family can serve the Lord with renewed clarity and singleness of mind. It is beautiful!!! 🙂