I dwell on wisdom. These are things I contemplate, having always preferred the deep truths to shallow half truths. I find I have been judgmental, which is not my right. I am sorry for this. I find the more truth I seek out, ask for, absorb, am given, the more foolish I am and the world system we endure. I find people, including myself for much of my life, seeking to fill our God – designed place for Him with temporary feel good schemes, pleasures, wealth, lies, momentary highs and sins of all flavors and kinds, all the while storing up great or momentary pleasures that go as easily as they come or leave behind pain. And all the while the great and powerful and surprisingly loving God who created us sees everything we do and answers every prayer in hopes that we are saved. Eternity looms, as it did for Noah as he built the ark right before the flood came and it was too late. People go about their business as then like they have all the time in the world, like God is not really ending the world soon as He warned because He has been merciful and patient so far, not wanting any to perish horribly for eternity. Eternity is a very long time. And here we are, all of us, comfortable or uncomfortable, as the moment allows, and thinking of ourselves, forgetting the sacrifice of His life Jesus Christ made and then was resurrected for us to be saved from eternal separation from God, love, goodness, etc. God says humbly obey and love me because I can and long to save you our of my love for you. We say, yeah thanks but I really want this fix now. When God is the only Healer who fixes your heart’s wounds permanently. And we do not have forever to do the right thing and make the right decision. We only have now for sure and face eternity whenever this life ends for us, the next drunk driver, a heart attack, cancer, some terrorist, a drug addict wants your stuff to sell for a brief high, whatever. We only have now for sure so we must decide to humbly obey and love God, accepting the sacrifice and resurrection of His Son for us. This is wisdom. This is truth. Nothing is deeper or simpler. Nothing is more beautiful and it is eternal, which is a very long time.❤
A philosopher by nature, my explorations into the realm of meaning and purpose in life, my thoughts walk across my memory. I wonder, as the transport ambulance drives off to the nursing home with my father, if his life’s meanderings met his expectations. And I wonder less about my own life’s meanderings be ause of this. I am certain that many experiences in my Daddy’s life he thought were mistakes or missteps. I wonder if he ever regretted extremely long hours worked. But every step he took, good or bad, right or wrong, made me possible, contributed to my existence and participation in life in such a way as to have my own meaning as an extension of his. Every hour of work kept us alive and housed and clothed and fed and schooled. Every choice I have made inevitably contributed to the existence and life of my children. My precious babies exist because of my life’s meanderings. So each chance we take in the realm of our best decision of the moment is truly purposeful when God gets a hold of it. Each bad decision can be made to be as useful by Him as any good one. We strive for perfection, we thrive on feeling useful and meaningful and worshipful. But even the bad can be turned into good by the God who still reshapes and creates. And the heart is a master representative of where God wants to send you. He appreciates access to it and forms good from it. If the focus is on Him who seeks the heart and truly gets and loves it, the focus is often enough. Then good or bad decisions can be useful and purposed for very good things. So maybe the choice meant well from a heart of focus on God, whether good or bad, can be the best one. Maybe we can leave perfect to the only One who is and we can draw our hearts to focus on Him and do the best we can. And this is truly beautiful.