Leave the Past in the Pasture or You’ll Step in it Again

Even if the past was fantastic beyond measure and the best time of your life and more meaningful than anything else ever, still, even then, leave the past in the pasture behind you or you’ll step in something unpleasant. You went through that time, for better or worse and it meant something significant for better or worse but it was foe a season. How do you know? You would still be there if it was meant for now. Simple. Oh, one thing I wish I could scream to the world is that life is really very simple and meant to be so. The simple things matter, what remains matters, the present matters. It is simple. If you left someone awful or magnificent in the past for any reason or if they left you, that was the answer. People never throw away or leave that which they truly love. There is your answer. Accept and embrace the pain of it and leave it there and walk on. There is more to life than memories and histories. That is part of us but we need to focus on the now. God has us where we are for a reason. It is beautiful and meaningful now. The past may have held more meaning or more happiness but just because that of now is different makes it no less important and meaningful, just different. Stay here. Own it. Be present fully. If every day were a party, there would be no party.❤

Unknown Past

Unknown past, which beckons me find ye which never has or shall be. You excite my mind with a million “what ifs?” And befit my present with possible this or that or the other, a variable buffet or so many unknowns that could have happened this way.

Unknown past, with your cruel hoax of multiple forks I could have taken or awaken, could have hoped for, could have shorn. And alas, unknown past, with your sheepish grin, come. I have something to say to you, oh busy one.

You must leave me this instant and you’re welcome no more, no more will you be welcome at this soul’s mind’s door. For surely there is not a path I did take that is out of step on my journey, beyond hope for escape.

And God is with me on this journey I have landed, so plan it or not, unknown past, I demand that you leave me forever. God demands that you go, and I second that notion for past long ago would never happen how you say that it would.

I am with God and the present is good and the future is even brighter and clear. So past unknown keep your distractions from here.❤

Vestiges of a Bygone Era

I was cleaning out my bottom drawer tonight, just now actually, and came across vestiges of a bygone era. These were tokens from a deeply past lover. Why had I kept them all these years when it is abundantly and rightfully clear that the sin committed in the past with him is forgiven, forgotten, no more. It is strange why I kept them so long, these gifts that stayed hiding in my drawer. So I removed them and am giving them away to my friend who needs them. These items mean nothing to me now at all. I realized that tonight, but I had not dismissed them from my ownership until tonight. And I pondered why and I guess in a strange way, I had truly felt loved by someone at the time they were given and that felt good. No matter what happens, I can look and remember that I was wanted and loved once by someone. And I am growing more certain by the minute that that was the case. I wanted to remember, as I lay alone at night that once long ago I was loved. And I am giving them away because I realize something newer and much more substantial. Jesus loves me more and He stuck around. And I am not saying that he should have stayed with me… I am right where God wants me and loved truly by Him… I am saying that I wish him well, am glad God separated us so my family could exist, and only need Jesus now and forever more. Past is released and whatever was required for its passing- forgiveness, release, acceptance, peace, joy- is completed. And I move forward with a load lightened and Jesus who loves me forever.❤

Rehashing Days Passed

Thinking about my life’s journey has been a repetitive occurrence of late. I have wanted to leave no stone unturned in confessing forgotten sins I have gotten away with or just have forgotten and maybe didn’t even realize at the time. And overall I believe my life has been like everyone else’s in that I have done really great things and have amazing memories and I have been pretty much scummy also at times. I have said beautiful words that have inspired and I have said careless words that have cut people to the quick. I have told the truth and I have lied. I believe this is everyone’s story with just the details different.

For my part, I am ashamed of the sins in my life and am truly sorry for them. And I wish I could go door to door and confess but I don’t know where all over the world some moved to or last names now or whatever so have to rely on God to help them forgive me.

But I praise God where He has given me grace and mercy. There is no sin too little or too great that His grace cannot cover it with His forgiveness and purify us with His blood. He is perfectly capable of restoring our souls where we are at our level. And He can and will restore our souls in heaven someday soon. And all the regrets and sadness of people lost and loneliness and hurt and every ugly thing will instantly be forgotten and us restored to full life in our incredible Jesus Christ. And that day is soon and I long for it for my family.

At the same time, I have sadness for those left behind. It will get harder, much harder, when that happens. And I want everyone to be saved, as God also wants every precious soul saved. He loves us oh so much.

So, I guess my thoughts on my past are really a distraction. I am made right by God through the sacrifice of Jesus and I have a job to do now. So onward I go and keep moving forward and someday it will be moving up. Praise God, everyone. Praise Him, friend. I thank Him for you and remind you how greatly you are loved and considered precious!❤

Never Forget the Bad

The wounds you bore, the mistakes you made, the pain you survived, every tear cried, never forget. But remember for the right reasons. Remember that the enemy and bad choices made all those things but God has healed them all or is in the process of it as soon as you humbly ask Him to. Remember where you have been in order to bring glory to God for getting you through and saving your soul for eternity from such devastation. Never forget what God has brought you through. Forget to glorify God and forgive it all, even yourself, and then deny these things power over your present, learning that God’s salvation and life is far greater for you and for eternity. I am proud of where I have been because praise God He got me through them wiser and humbler. Our history needs to be reflected on sometimes not to go back or grow bitter but to forgive and realize what God brought us through and never to go back to it. Forgetting or drowning the past in distractions or drugs/addictions of choice prevent the full lesson. Sometimes greater than the pain of that time is the longer drawn out pain of remaining there and not allowing God to heal you and complete the leason. People believe the lie that it will hurt more but the truth is that God frees completely. ❤

Today I Touched the Past

Today I touched the past, I played the song and it did not harm me. The flow of music from times past wafted over my soul and yet I walk on unscathed. I walked beneath the fountain of its ancient flow and am uncrippled. I saw that which had been left in the past and restored and basked in its current value and allowed the remainder to stay behind. I have moved on but some people and friendships are worth the effort to sustain. There comes a time when walking forward when one heals enough to return for what was valuable and leave the damage alone. Some friendships are not worth that effort but some certainly are. Today I reclaimed my friend. She is worth it. My heart is content and happy and peace and joy remain intact. God is so good.❤

Original Plans vs Now

The decisions we make change our present and our future. Imagine how different our lives would be if we never made that bad decision or stuck to our original plans or said no to that costly detour or any myriad of decision changes or detour options. I wonder about this. I believe I would be a physician and probably run an inter-city free clinic with a huge family full of foster kids and adopted kids. This was my dream before men detoured me (my fault, not theirs- don’t think me deceived now). But I think we all have a God-given plan that we can follow or not follow. So then, when we figure this all out from another place entirely at a later time, is it too late? Have we ruined it? Well, here is the answer I believe to be true. God looks at the heart. Our heart can get off course but it can also humbly obey and thus be beautiful to Him. And wherever we end up, our heart is still His focus. Do you love me now? Do you want to obey now? Are you humble and worshipping now? If so, God will give you a new vision, goal, dream, purpose that will help His people or worship Him. And we must ask forgiveness and move forward in obedience. God is way bigger than you having one chance to get it right or He’s finished with you. There is only one way to be saved eternally through Jesus, but everything else is flexible. God can use what you have gone through for a new, richer, deeper purpose. Don’t beat yourself up. God sure doesn’t. When you and forgiveness, it is now invisible, gone, ancient history. Be His child now. Right now, humbly worship Him, pray, read your Bible, His Word. Obey. Right where you are, be a light for Him and love people. The now matters a million times more than the past, as long as you have humbly asked forgiveness and turned away from bad decisions. That is truth. Hope is now and future.❤