Sometimes we just miss people that once were a strong part of our lives and now and forever will be missing. To miss them is human. There is not much getting around that. We feel. God made us empathetic and feeling creatures, and our hearts sometimes are fuller than we can bear and it seeps out and rolls down our cheeks. We just miss them sometimes. The pain lessens with time and prayer but sometimes you just have to pull out the pictures and memories and just remember and cry one more time. And then on we go on our journey for we do not journey backwards but ahead. We miss people from our past but we must move forward and be in the now. Good news is that God comforts us when we mourn. And I can attest to that. There were times my tears were streaming from such a deep part of my soul, I thought my heart would just break right into and I would be dead. I really thought that it was so deep. But when I prayed my famous prayer “Help me! Hold me!” God put an arm around me. It felt so real I thought someone was there. And it felt like He wiped my tears off my cheeks. It really felt that way. And I understood the entire world and God’s pain and sadness at losing valuable people. I got it. I understood mourning is not for the weak but for all people at some point and God loves us so much He cannot bear to see us so heart-broken without comforting us. He is a good Daddy. And so I missed someone today but God is faithful to comfort and then remind me to keep doing what is right and moving forward, focused on the now. “Now is the most important time in the history of mankind.” I made that up just now but I bet someone already said it somewhere. Lol But each and every day, taken one at a time, is precious and valuable and the most important time of your life. The internal decisions you make right now will change every attitude here forward. And on we go, moving forward but focused on right now. Miss if you need to, and sometimes you do, but then let God dry your tears.and move forward, focused on the no wow with His help. You and He can do it!
When someone comes up to you that has been a close friend for years and tells you to take a flying leap because they feel their life is better without you (of course they word it nicer), do yourself a favor and reply “Good call”. Turn around. Walk away. Thank God He saved you from getting even closer before they decided to throw you away like rubbish. I am tired of people thinking their feelings are the only important ones, to heck with anyone who fell for it and loved them and genuinely wanted to help. As if life isn’t hard enough. Yes, they will leave a hole. Yes, it will hurt. Yes, it teaches a lesson on trust. But thank God He is our loving Father and causes them to leave you alone to rebuild and restore. Restoration is the only option. Love of who remains is the only driving force to get you through the heartache. But time lessens this pain and we that remain grow closer. It is for the best to know sooner than later. I am leaning more on family and Jesus and a few close friends who are family and I am going to go on so slowly anywhere else ever. Real life has enough pain in it to add to it by caring for those who admit they are happier without you, could care less if you exist, do not even want to keep in touch. I am happy to honor their wishes but it would maybe hurt a little less if they at least felt guilty or missed us or something. Narcissists suck. They use you and throw you away. And if that is not the case, there would be no reason to throw you away. They suck. They hurt everyone and wonder why they have trouble sleeping at night. Wake up, people. If you are friends with someone who discloses little and is not open with you, withdraw before you get too close. Their heart is weighing whether your friendship is worth their while or if they get more by moving on and being rid of you. Save yourself heartache and move on, draw close to the Lord and He will heal you. Draw near to God and He always draws near to you. Love on your family, always a good investment. Never ignore those pouring love into you. That shows where their heart is.