We do not live alone. Ever. God’s presence and Spirit is already everywhere. That is because He is omniscient, meaning everywhere at once. Only with God is this possible. So any feeling of loneliness is our purposeful misacknowledgment if His presence, a willful choice to be alone.❤
The little school girl came home from school and did her chores alone. She played her piano and weeded the garden and mowed the lawn alone. When she was finally finished, she ran with her dog through the field and ran back and sat on the top of her grassy hill, alone with her dog. She returned home at dark and cooked for her family. They ate separately in front of the tv and she did the dishes alone. She packed her own lunch for school the next day, showered and went to sleep alone. Day after day was the same day with mild variations. Alone, alone, alone. She worked hard though no one uttered a “well done” or a “good job”, just further criticism. But the thing is, she was never really alone spiritually. God was always with her. God was her companion and Heavenly Father. And God kept her company. She just had to keep remembering that. She had to keep praying. She had to see Him in what He made and remember. ❤ ❤ ❤
I know a lot of my regular readers are young and therefore are either going through the hurt of rejection or it is still piercing to think of. And I remembered back to that historical sting. And I was amazed to realize that the rejection that made me depressed at the time and still cry when I had thought of it in past times no longer had that affect on me. In fact, I felt sorry for the rejector and prayed for him and his horrible wife he ended up with. If it is any consolation for you at all, I find that if God wants you with that person, you will be with them, and when He knows (as He always does) it is not best or sees their true heart and knows you need to be free of them, He relieves you of them. And it is a loving thing to do. God dispenses people from your life when they will hurt you worse for longer by staying with them. Accept it. Appreciate being loved so much. It hurts so much, but trust that God knows more than you do and is keeping you from something far far worse. Please be blessed. Please be comforted by running to God’s arms. Please find rest and peace and joy in God. He loves you unconditionally. ❤
When I feel alone, God is still in charge.
When I feel utterly unloved, God is still in charge.
When my body has pain, God is still in charge.
When nothing goes right, God is still in charge.
When I want to run away, God is still in charge.
When life is very complicated, God is still in charge.
When I don’t understand what is going on, God is still in charge.
When I feel insignificant, God is still in charge.
And God is loving and capable and loves me very much. I am in good hands with God being in charge and I am blessed beyond measure just to understand He is my Heavenly Father. I can face everything because I never face it alone. God is with me, loving me who He made. God is everything. I have everything I need and God is incredible and beautiful! ❤ ❤ ❤
Last year, I had recently lost the best man in the world, the only one who has ever loved me without conditions and my greatest supportive force of my life, my daddy. And two other important, loved people to me also died then. I was sad, I did not even want to celebrate. I did not know how to. It was a monumental loss I had never experienced. So last Christmas was going through the motions, trying to be happy for the kids and my husband, doing my best so they were not traumatized as I was.
So here is my thought. You are never alone, as you feel. You are never unloved, as you feel. God is our Heavenly Father and loves us so much. So the advice is to remember that, get out and do something (socialize or exercise or serve somewhere), even if you don’t feel like it. Just do it. Read your Bible. Spend time with God. Do something. You will not feel like it. But from experience, time and God heal faster when we do something. The bed is a consuming blackness and brooding makes it worse. So chin up, my love. God will bless your efforts and love you stronger in time. It ends so much quicker when you do something. You can. ❤
There’s something about the night
About being alone in a bed
That throws loneliness at your feet
And drowns the laughter.
There is something about the night
Alone and cold and stark
That I should be happy about
But it still always feels a struggle.
There is something about the night
That weighs heavy on my heart
Of feeling unloved, unwanted
Of cuddling up alone.
But with God, there is no night.
He lights it with His calm.
The day is always there with Him
The night must flee it’s course.
So I cling to God in the night.
He pampers my soul and spirit.
The flesh may always burn with want
But my soul and spirit are free
Of the great pain of the night.
So to God I put all my trust.
And I will choose to listen
To the voice of peace and reason
And God will bring me comfort.❤
I am not on facebook. I was and wasted a heck of a lot of time on it pretending to be social but only writing, never saying or hearing an audible word from people, never making eye contact with them, never touching their skin. I still miss the thought of being “in touch” with them but once getting off of it realized it was just the thought I had to begin with. Knowing the events of a person’s life is in no shape the full picture of that person. Seeing pictures tells only part of the story. And I had shared my number before getting off of it and not one person from it except my best friend, one good friend and family has called since I’ve been off. No calls even when I was on, truth be told. It is this false notion of connectedness in an addictive need to know formula. And that is dangerous. One has a sense of urgent dependency to be on tech to feel connected but it is a false sense of connection. My husband got back on just to wish his daughter a happy birthday, as apparently she cannot communicate any other way. Now that he told her, he is getting off again. So, I was looking up a few friends from my past and they only jumped up in searches on facebook, maybe on Instagram too and nothing about real life. And it brought them right up so good people or bad people would know where they were, what they were doing, see their pictures, etc. That is pretty scary to me, maybe I am cautious. But being off facebook, evidently I am weird again and out of the loop and old fashioned and definitely out of people’s thoughts and minds and realm of communication. So, I draw closer still to God who loves me and my little family and take comfort that God is always with me, even on lonely night after lonely night and days of family and band family that are still around and maybe a friend now and then. And I am content, don’t get me wrong, but I miss days of calling someone up on a phone that doesn’t play a role in cancer and just talk or meet in person. Ooo, ah. What would it be like if neighbors still visited each other. What would happen if people actually still had and practiced real social skills? Who knew technology would kill real committed human connections. Amazing. So glad I have God or I would be extremely lonely in this world. I am so blessed. ❤