Defeat Day to Day Boredom

I used to be bored with normal anything and day to day menial tasks. God made me a big picture person who can and does big things.

I am on stage more comfortably than off it and never know how to small talk. I can and would rather help build a 150′ fence from scratch than do the dishes (we never got the promised dish washer). I started my own private practice Audiology business from scratch and did quite well even the firat year, but cringe at housework. I can heal and pray and fight off giants all day long but sigh heavily if I have to clean the bathrooms. It is how I am made.

Of course, I do all those daily things anyway. But day to day boredom used to be a very real problem for me. I am a doctor because I am ambitious and competitive and smart and want to do more in life and make a difference for God.

But. A huge word, but. God gave me different eyes and a different heart. God wants us balanced. He wants balance in the earth, in our lives, in our cells. How do I know that? He designed it that way. I am only half of my potential if I can only function in my comfort zone. I am not my full potential if I only do what I enjoy and never push to the uncomfortable. What good is healing a person if you can’t talk to them afterwards? What good is a glorious fence if the house is trashed?

So God gave me a glorious lesson in contentment. Even though I sleep alone, have no control or say in any of the finances, have no idea what the passwords are for my husband’s secretive computer and tablets other women are on, have to do all the routine day to day boring jobs in the house without appreciation, have no control over anything and cannot even speak freely without criticism, things which would have in the past made me unhappy at best and homicidal at worst, I am still content. How is this possible?

God wanted me balanced. And much more than that, He wanted me and wanted me free. God loves me, you see. My Heavenly Father wants my worship, my love back because He loves me so much. He gave me this gift of contentment so I am happy being with or doing anything with God. I trust God, not another person. And that is ok.

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” I am proof of that.❤

As I Fly

As I Fly through this life,

And the turbulence grows,

I know who holds up my wings.

For I once used to walk

And sluggishly climb

But God gave me the Spirit for my keeping.

And along now I fly

Through life’s high points and low

And I never run out of fuel

For even if I glide

For a little while

God raises me body and soul.

We are not alone

On this flight we are on

Even if it seems that we are.

No, God’s in control

When we ask Him to be

So we can have peace and just smile.❤

Irrational Arguments

My new policy is to not engage in irrational arguments. I walk away. I do not even acknowledge them anymore and they no longer anger me. I have realized that some people (particularly the ignorant or reprehensible) desire war because of the evil in their own heart and mind. They want to fight. It is a self-destruction mode they seem to be set on. It is pathetic. Now, I will ignore their insistent barking and still love on them if I am able because God’s desire is that they change and humble their souls and be truly saved, so that is my desire again. But I will submit what love I can and then gracefully and peacefully walk away. Those who argue with fools become fools. I will love and move on. This is my new strategy to avoid idiotic battles the enemy attempts to throw my way to distract me. I have found I and my family are way too precious to give away my energy to a person who chooses death over life. I wish them life and will still love them to help them have life available if they want it, but that is the extent of it. No drama will be tolerated. And I will obey God and do my work humbly for Him.❤

Motivation to Live

Motivation for living is always God, the promoter and source of life. He who made life encourages it to thrive. That is the truth. And for me, I am also motivated by remembering that our enemy is very real also and is almost as adamant about destroying life as God is about promoting it. Almost. And with significantly less power. God is omnipotent and all powerful and absolutely brimming with Love, the greatest Force in the universe. The enemy is a fallen angel, a created one who wanted the glory and power, a jealous prideful one, therefore brimming with hate, the weakest force in the universe, held together by lie upon lie upon lie, a created one. He has no great power withing except that which God had originally given him and so has to cover that up with a myriad of lies, smoke and mirrors, deceptions, and cheap parlor tricks. So this motivates. Moreso than the enemy’s weakness is the Truth of God. And knowing that every battle we have on this earth is a spiritual battle for our souls, allows forgiveness to happen. We forgive the people for they are quite ignorant that they are pawns in a game. They operate on belief in a lie. They chose ignorance over truth. They are duped suckers and so easy to forgive. Closeness to God promotes life, truth, love, all the fruits of the Holy Spirit and drawing close to Him is life and motivation to live. He is near, present wherever we are. He holds nothing back when we humbly pray, wanting us to live the purpose we were designed to live and longing with great love to be close to us. Love is then the motivation to live, for God is love. Nothing else persists past the time it takes you to get that and forgive and humbly pray. And that, beautiful friend, is the deep truth. And the Truth always sets you free. ❤