I am far from perfect. I strive for being purified by God. I am way too realistic to strive for perfection. I understand full well that is impossible with me. Not because I am bad but because I am human. I strive to live to please God and be purified by Jesus. That is it. That makes me look not perfect but restored. I still have the scuffs and dings and scars but I am a restored, refurbished work of God.
Today, I blew it and again need restoration. Thankfully, God is in the business of detail work. I became angry at a leader in the church, an intern, actually. I said true but inappropriate things about him to a coworker in the kids ministry. I should not have. My anger was just and things are not being handled appropriately, but that is no excuse for me to vent and blow my cool, which I certainly did. True or not, gossip is wrong. Very wrong. I blew it. I saddened my God and I am fully sorry. I said my apologies and prayed my confession and apology and am now in the restoration shop of God again for some detail work.
The thing is, none of us is perfect. I handle my screw ups/sins way better than I used to, however, and I am thankful to God for that. He helped me meet my imperfections with humility rather than pride. The imperfections almost always originate from pride, so to meet them with humility is the cure. It is the step of repentence back. Humility is beautiful. And anyone who says humility is for sissies has never tried it. It requires far more bravery and strength and energy than base pride. But the results are restorative and glorious.
So I wanted to share that and maybe it can help someone too. God is so very good and full of grace and generous with forgiveness. Praise be the Lord!!!❤❤❤
There are times we should spill the beans. For instance, when we are planting these beans to grow, we should spill them. Another good time is when spilling the beans into some boiling water makes them tender enough to eat and gain nutrition from. Maybe spilling the beans would offer some help in a kitchen fire, particularly if they had been soaking a bit. Perhaps other such scenarios would benefit one who spills beans. But if not beneficial in some such way, spilling the beans seems a bit clumsy and involves a lack of discipline and mental courage and strength. Most of the times the beans don’t belong to you in the first place. Often these colorful beans would be much better served as decorations on a shelf in a classy jar or as paperweights or some such thing. When beans spill, it is the overworked broom and dustpan that suffers. The clean up is generally horrible. Some spilled beans could inadvertantly be planted and take root and become out of control in no time at all. It is just a mess. So unless sVing a life or some such noble deed, please do not spill the beans. We all have enough veggies of our own. Thank you.
Sometimes we share our thoughts and experiences with others and that is nice. But except for a very trusted close friend or two, sometimes we show people we care more by not sharing. Yes, opening up to the Lord and one or two closest friends for prayer and help is definitely required. Other people don’t need to be burdened. Quite frankly, unless they have a vested interest, they probably have enough on their plates or could deep down care less or may be well meaning gossips. It is best to keep things to the Lord and one or two close, trusted, vested friends and siblings in the Lord. I say this because the enemy is also listening in on your conversations and will do his best to use what you say and who you say it to against you. We are commanded to trust the Lord but never commanded even one time to trust other people. If you are blessed enough to have a best friend, especially one who is a sister or brother in the Lord, that is sufficient. God is sufficient to meet our needs. A friend can help you pray and bless you with help or council. Other people may not be such a blessing. And if you do blab to them, and then are surprised by their lack of discretion or comments or whatever, they are not who you should be annoyed at. Not my normal topic but gossip is such a huge problem in the church. Sometimes it is disguised as someone wanting to pray for you. And they may mean well. However, not everyone in the church, despite their age, is mature as a believer. We should always be aware of that. Some people, I have decided, are simply content to not ever grow in their spiritual maturity. And I have participated in my healthy share of gossip in the past. I am determined to only listen to what I sincerely am praying over and say no to hearing the rest. Also, I have become very guarded who I speak to about issues that arise in my life. I only speak with spiritually mature close friends who I love and trust to pray with me. Sometimes we just need the prayers of a friend. However, in being a worship leader and always in a church band, firsthand I have seen such hurt and betrayal when people blindly put their trust in an unworthy subject, as worthy as they look on the outside. I believe this can safely fit into the category of not throwing your pearls before swine. And as the days grow closer to the return of our Lord, it is more important to be very careful who to trust. God is really sufficient for all our needs, when in doubt, and He will never betray your trust.