I had to get over things not going the way I had planned it in my head and even heart. Here is the thing: I have my way and God has His way and He knows infinitely more than I do.
So, my husband’s quote is “But where are your feet now?” Meaning, you had all these plans, but we are here right now somehow. Stop blaming so and so for screwing it up. Where are your feet now?
Do what you can where you are. Accept that God wants you to be here now for a reason and loves you. Then accept again and forgive again and do what you can where you are. Maybe the other lights burned out in your area and you are it. You are the only light of truth and love and hope where you are. Maybe you are growing to be a better light. Maybe you rebelled and turned around to start again.
No matter, you are here now and you must be here now. Stop wasting time. It is very valuable now, more than ever.😄❤
I usually only write once daily but I am making an exception for a very important topic. In my devotions, I just read an excerpt by Anna J. Lindgren. She wrote, “Is there a Christian of maturer years who does not carry about in his heart sensitive scars that keep breaking open, because a fellow Christian inflicted the wound? And forgiveness asked and granted never went deep enough to pour in the oil that heals and erases the memory of the hurt. And here we go, supersensitive to the slightest touch of real or fancied hurt, wrapped about with our dignified rights and our ” righteous indignation” and our wounded pride. And the wound never heals, and the work of God is arrested, because no one is great enough to be small enough to get down on his bare knees on the floor and with the towel of humility wipe the feet and heart of the offender. The pride of flesh cries out, ‘Not I! What would people think? I am the one sinned against! I must uphold my position!’ Who is the one sinned against? The One who rose from throne, laid aside the garment of light, took up the poor towel of humanity and wrapped it about His glorious Person, poured His own blood into the basin of the cross, and set Himself to wash away the foul stains of human depravity and guilt. ‘He…took a towel.'(John 13:4). I think this is beautiful and true. Often we forget God’s generous forgiveness for our wrongs and we hold on to the wrongs of others as if we were ungrateful for God’s gifts to us. We think being right is more important than being at peace. And a kind, gentle word turns away wrath. We must remember!
Summer is here ( maybe not officially but in spirit), and as such I wear flip flops or go barefoot much of the time. While it keeps my feet considerably cooler, it inevitably produces calluses on my feet. Actually, I work in the yard so much, I end up with them on my hands too, if I’m not careful. So, what does that have to do with the price of eggs? Glad you asked. When we have a lot of experience with our hearts in serving the public or just our family and those we are serving are much more comfortable with being served than serving back, it is a constant push against our hearts. In time, the heart can build up calluses on it as well, calluses of indifference, anger, bitterness, impatience, hatred even, etc. It is very hard to feel anything once the calluses are there. Prevention is all good and well but what if the calluses are there? To understand how to solve the problem, we first need to understand it. Calluses are actually begun as God’s gift to us and our skin for protection. It starts small and if unchecked grows thicker as the body feels the need is there for self protection. Imbalance causes it. Yes, we need to serve the Lord and those needing it with gladness. However, sometimes we need time to relax and revive with prayer and Bible reading and meditation as well as rest. To keep them from building up again once they’re gone, that is what we must remember and make a priority. But to remove the calluses of the heart, we must use the same procedures to remove those of our feet. First, we must get off them. What? That works for the feet but how do you get off the heart? You stop applying so much pressure, must stop doing so much, must cease activities that hurt it. This first step involves the word “no”. How often you have to use that word for a few weeks or months is in direct proportion to how thick the calluses have become. Then, you soak those calluses. How do you soak your heart? Good question. A good soaking involves rest and immersion in the waters of baptism and renewal and revival and Bible reading and prayer and seeking God and finding Him (because He promises that when we seek Him we will find Him every time). Next step is most unpleasant. It is the sloughing off of the callus. If extremely thick, some cutting is also required for the outermost layers. This is cutting out the negative activity or people from your life which your heart feels you need protection from. When you give and someone in your life (who is capable of giving back) only takes, it is okay to stop giving and cut off or slough away that callus builder. We don’t have to keep giving our pearls away to pigs. It’s in the Bible, very true. Praise God for free will! Then, when we’ve gotten back to good health, we need to slather the lotion of worship and praise and spending time alone with God to finish the procedure. And remember the balance mentioned previously to keep the calluses from building up again. God bless you!