Everyone I know lives on Facebook. I used to too. They use it for news, gossip, self edification, bask in their own goodness with it, I did it too. I quit my addiction cold turkey because some idiot female was trying to talk bad about me to my husband who decided life had enough drama and bye bye Facebook for a long time. And also, the timing fit because I was mourning the loss of loved ones and do sad better alone. So, in line with the decision, I deactivated my account. Later, it magically resurfaced. Interesting. So I deleted it completely. Low and behold, it takes an entire month to be deleted permanently and during that month the account is active! If I log in to deactivate during the long wait for someone to push a button to delete me, I reactivate it first and have to wait another month. It is really easy to pick up an idol to bow down to, one that tracks you and reads your stuff, but very hard to rid yourself of it. Rant over. The point is, I had a problem, an addiction to something and realize it now and will not go down that road again. I am quite guarded now who I let into my world. I am quite selective who is in our band family and who enters our home, who I tell anything to. It has to be that way. Few people really care anymore and that is a shame, especially when so many claim to love my God. People are wrapped up in talking to themselves and a machine that they do not know how to talk in person without being bored or in a hurry to get away and text so some else about it. Seems like a strange turn of events. I am wanting more than ever to go back in time and live without any tech at all. While yurt living with a raw vegan smoothie is not in my immediate future, I am wanting to run away from society to a small neck of the country and worship God with my family in nature. And that is where my heart is. Of course, we have some things to do here for a while. But someday, if I have my way, you will look and we will be a speck on the horizon headed for space and beautiful farmland to grow some food and breathe air. Maybe just a dream, maybe very real. God only knows. 🙂
Today I deleted my facebook account. I missed it, missed knowing what was going on in people’s lives and being connected with them, seeing their pictures. I realized how much I relied on that to feel connected to people instead of just being with people or talking to them. I miss those far away, especially those I love that love me, but those close to me had greater meaning and prominence. I was more present during band practice today. I focused more on my kids and made more meaningful moments with them. I was more present. And I see where I had a dependency on that which is far away rather than focusing on the task at hand. I tend to want to connect socially with those far away rather than work on present tasks with those in my path now. My journey has shifted. I am always learning. I will always love those near and far who are in my circle of friends and family, all fellow journeyers, always. I am loyal and cut like that, but I must focus on teaching my children and preparing them for life and teaching them to serve here. So each day will have challenges and distractions, but with God’s help, I will focus more and more on the moment and task at hand and less and less on those things. And Lord willing, we will learn and grow every day and grow in wisdom and knowledge and understanding to serve God and those He made better.
I have been on Facebook for years, sometimes actively and sometimes scarcely. Now, I am deleting my accounts. The reason is private but I will tell you that part of it is a focus on family time and part of it is our security. Twitter is fairly safe so I will conti n ue on Twitter. However, more and more eyes and hackers are on Facebook than ever before and this world is less and less interested in the morality. So to be on the safe side and have fewer distractions for my kids and family and bands, I am deleting my Facebook account and focusing on family. All may contact me on my cell or on Twitter and I will continue my blog here, but Facebook will no longer be part of the mix. I hope you all understand. I will miss the encouragement and pictures and laughs most and definitely the interaction with those I love as well as that tolerate me. Keep my n umber and call or text anytime. I love you all dearly. May God bless you and your families!! 🙂 ❤