I wear many hats.
I am Christian, wife, mother, friend, grandmother, teacher, Sunday School teacher, church pianist, caretaker times three, band member/co-leader, neighbor, singer/songwriter doctor, PE coach, cleaner, dog owner, babysitter, driver, blogger, author/writer, encourager, promoter, prayer warrior.
Those are a lot of hats. I was exhausted writing those down.
How do I do it all and stay sane (most of the time)?
One Person gives me strength every single day, every moment of the day, loving me through every step…. God.
God is my Heavenly Father and in our loving relationship as Father and adopted daughter, He cares for me. God is not a construct and terrifying judge (although He will judge people who reject Jesus Christ as Messiah and Lord of their life). God is Father through the redemptive work of Jesus Christ and the work of the Holy Spirit. As Father He can lavish love and power on us. As Father, He gives me new energy and strength every single moment. He is such a good Father.
And that is my big secret. Many hats, one God. ❤❤❤
I tell you what. Losing 22 pounds the healthy way in just 2 months really dumps a ton of energy into your body. I am getting g things done and caught up that were so behind in my larger, unhealthy, still coming out of depression days. I hadn’t realized how much I had let go of, just not doing it, not paying attention. Since losing the weight and still working on losing more to get to a “normal” weight for my ridiculously short height, I am working on putting in the fence, catching up on yard maintenance, mowing, spring cleaning, reorganizing, rearranging the kids’ rooms to make more sense, reading, keeping up with cooking and cleaning, doing dishes, subbing the outdoor front patio, practicing my piano, catching up with old friends I love but have neglected, oh so many things! And I am not worn out, my back doesn’t hurt, my knees are fine, no pain anywhere, and I am looking for and finding things to do for fun and productivity. I love this. I am working for God and love the energy and help losing weight He is giving me. God is so very good and holds us well. ❤
I have been moving toward health and increased energy. Today, I am quite content that I am going the right direction. This morning I walked 3 miles then woke my son and walked with him 1 more mile. So, 4 miles this morning at a rapid clip. This was fabulous. Then we had a 2 hour band practice and that all went well. So, my energy level is definitely improved, which is what I wanted. So, I am thanking God for it and celebrating His strengthening me as I work for Him. Praise God!!!❤❤❤
When you have no energy, it is very difficult to show love. Love is service, attention, time, action, sometimes financial. Smiling and sitting with someone takes little energy and praying takes mental and spiritual energy, so that is a huge invisible way to show love. But other than these few huge exceptions, most other ways of showing love require energy. Always, love requires intention and purpose. So my point in these words is that we have to love ourselves and allow God to love us and heal us enough to increase our own energy before we can heap love on other people. And this is our goal. For some people, they want a relationship to heal them. But if you have no energy to contribute to the mutual love, you become a drain, a selfish heal me, serve me, love me better person. And it is as toxic situation for both really. God heals. People cannot do what He does without Him doing it. God loves. People cannot truly love purely and morally without God’s involvement. So, we must be sound peraonally and whole and have energy enough to show love to others before entering a mutual love relationship. Otherwise it does not last. So breath in deep of God’s love and grow strong in His love and care first. Then you have the means to do the work of love and thus worship to God that we are called to do. And I can and treat to this. I had no energy left so stopped most things I was doing and spent much time in prayer and the Bible and with family and supportive friends only. And the last two days brought renewed energy and a strong desire to give back love to those loving me and others who need love. And exercising has given me increased energy also and serves to provide additional health and support so that I may serve love. It is and beautiful system when it works as designed!
I have plenty of energy today, but for a couple weeks my body has had energy (due to exercise, walking and a healthy diet) but the painter within me has been out of paint. I have struggled with grieving, feeling alone, wanting alone time, anger, frustration, disappointment, spiritual fatigue. It wasn’t one single incident that caused but a myriad of little ones upon big ones. And this was compounded by the fact that though I have been praying, I have not been reading my Bible as much to listen. This quiet slipping of the supply chain was not allowing the paint to be refilled and I was in very short supply. So, suffice it to say, even painters rely completely on their refilling of paint in order to do their craft. So, the lesson here is that all of us require fuel to perform, a medium to do our craft, food to grow, and this is true for our spirits and souls as well as our bodies. The two have different needs, and when one is healthy, the other may not be and that one is invisible until it gets bad enough to takeover the physical. So, the message is clear and poignant. Refill your paint regularly, daily through prayer AND reading the Bible and you will be a successful painter. Recharge your spiritual batteries or you will run out of power and rely on the much weaker physical body to get you there. The spirit, when refreshed, is the strength as God intended it to be. Our relationship with the Supplier of strength gives us strength. The enemy and my ego actively fight this very simple principle. We must be wiser than their trick is and buckle down to the reality of our need for God. A painter is only great as long as they have access to paint. 🙂