Made to Feel

I used to get angry at myself for showing my feelings. It always seemed to be frowned upon. I was always a very emotional girl but no one would ever know it. I was led to believe crying is for babies and emotional outbursts were for the out of control and thus a crime. I stifled. I wondered why we had feelings if we could never express them. Then I thought maybe they were for marriage, to pour into your mate for life. And then I had no feelings left after a very short amount of time and did not know where to go from there. Upon remarrying, my husband quiets and limits my emotion and feelings also so again I am quelled. Why does God give us emotions if we have to stifle them all the time? There must be a reason because He never makes mistakes and I am not questioning Him, just me. Am I so different? Is this my biggest reason I am weird?  Even worshipping, people want quiet reverence when I want to scream and dance that my Savior lives and loves us and is coming soon!!! There seems a strange conundrum here. Perhaps it is because we are made for something more… some greater freedom. Maybe heaven will be loud and fun. Maybe we are given feelings to motivate us to act. Maybe evil screwed that all up too and we will be free when it is laid to rest soon. For whatever reason, I will continue to ride it out and try my very best to minimize my emotions and discount my feelings. I warn you, though, I am gaining ground with self-control (why one person that attacked my family is still unharmed and will remain so- I forgive her) but I am caring less and less what others think of my worshipping the Lord corporately. I care what God thinks. Everyone else, not so much anymore. I obey God, not them.❤

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Frazzle Dazzle

When we are shaken, frazzled, unnerved, we very quickly must decisively and with full measure act toward turning the frazzle into dazzle. What on earth am I talking about? I mean when life gets really messy, as mine has done these past two weeks and millions of times before that, we can be messy and give up that round and maybe even sit out the next or we can decide that no matter the mess, we’re going to put the elbow grease into it and make it shine and work for our good to get to glory. We all know from experience that at the end of messy trials and tests and distractions of life there is growth and joy and depth of character and Spirit and maturity. We know it in our heads, but in the middle of it, it is easy to forget what our heads know over the seeming needs of our hearts and bodies. And yet, thinking with our minds and Spirits rather than our emotions is exactly what we need to use to push us through. There has to be a purposeful conversation with your emotional self that wants to roll up in the fetal position and wait out the storm. We have to say, “Yes, you are important but we will have to feel those feelings later. Right now we have work to do” and get plowing through. So, keeping our lights on in the dark world instead of letting them be snuffed out with too many challenges or daunting tasks ahead will elevate you to a whole new dazzle! You will not just hold your little flickering light, no. You will glitter and shine like a freshly polished diamond knowing you have been tried and tested and stood for Christ against it all. We have a goal, and we have to keep our goal in mind and heart. Our goal is to make it, to please the Father and be found worthy of His free gift of salvation and go to be with Him forever in Heaven when this short life wraps up. If we concrete that goal in our minds during resting seasons, we can weather any storm. And we have One who stands and works with us. He, the brilliant and shining One wants us to dazzle also, to show the world what doing it right is, to give them examples of hitting your target and weathering your storm brilliantly. With God, we can absolutely do anything we set our minds to. Those are not words that float around the air without substance, not at all. That is a promise and knowledge with teeth. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. God absolutely and unequivocally means that literally. There isn’t a question mark there. Keep it in your mind as a fact and don’t put a question mark there just because it seems lime more than you can handle. You are never alone!!! God, All Powerful, Almighty, Perfection walks with you every step of the way through the immense power of His Holy Spirit who lives in every Christ follower. So when life gets messy and you are frazzled, just breathe for a moment and remember God’s u failing pro use and dig in for the impact and work on until the end of it arrives and you are dazzling! Woo boo!