Longings of the Soul

My body has longed for things and people I should never have longed for. And that is a shallow, emotional matter which requires the help of God via self-control. I am not speaking of that otherwise. I wish to speak of the deep longings of the soul, the spirit. Most churches/pastors/society denies our depths in favor of the easier and more palatable surface/body/shallow/physical issues. Easier, lazier to deal with. Obvious. A moron speaks of such things without ever going deeper. The deeper longings of our soul and spirit are where our shallow stuff comes from. It is the why we do what we do. If we auchddress the behavior but never they why, there is a huge chasm in relatability and practicality and intelligence there. We have to go deeper to grow in spiritual maturity and deeper relationship with Christ. It just has to happen. So we have to ask ourselves heavier questions? “Why was that a temptation?”, “What made that desirable?”, “Why does that bother/anger/trigger me?”, “What do I need that I am not getting?” are all questions to start digging with. Sometimes we get stuck on anger comfortable, familiar lie that got stuck in there and replayed so long we take it as truth and it is tripping us up. For example, every guy I dated told me I was fat and criticized my appearance. So I took that as fact. I was unlovable because I was fat. Every guy. But I started digging. Why does it bother me what guys think? What do I need? And it turns out I have a deep desire and longing to be loved and accepted as I am, secure in love. And I was drawn to men who were critical because I was raised with criticism and that was a comfortable lie that I had nothing but flaws. The thing is, once I realized where I screwed up, I could correct it and if guys started criticizing, bye bye. I adndccepted not going to be comfortable around lies again. And further, I repented of that sin and sought out God to be.my loving security and His perfect love is the only kind that loves me as I am. See, God is Who I needed the entire time. ❤❤❤

Deeper Meanings

When we face suffering, there is always a deeper meaning to it than we realize or can see aft the moment. We go through uncomfortable or downright brutal things and there is a deeper meaning for it, whether it be a test of character (an opportunity to shine and show what you are made of), a building of character (somewhere you need molding to improve and get better), a spiritual reason (preparation for helping others who are going or have gone through that same thing and need help out), or someone was just a jerk and you have to practice forgiveness. There is always something deeper going on. The key  is to know that and trust God to reveal which it is in due time. God knows everything and can help get you through quicker as soon as you are humble and ask Him, being available for and ready for His help, acknowledging Him as the greatest Power here, which is an act of worship. Worship has also a deeper meaning then too. Worship focuses our attention of the powerful and very loving God who incredibly puts Himself available to us for a relationship. He is our Heavenly Father, the perfect One. The quicker we ask Him for help and be humble, the quicker we are through and on to better things, like His blessings that always come to us on the other side.

The Power of Struggle

Without struggles in our lives, we can not know ourselves and what we are really like, how we handle pressure, what we need to work on, how we learn, our pride level, so many things. If we only possess a perfect life in which no conflict was present, for one it would be dreadfully boring and two, we would never have the opportunity to know or improve ourselves beyond the extent of the mirror looking at the outer shell of ourselves. To truly know ourselves and what we are capable of and what we need work on, how can we grow wiser, learn, challenge ourselves, learn to lead, etc.? And without knowing ourselves deeper, how do we know God deeper, whose fingerprint is below the seen, in the soul and not on the seen shell? Not that we are God but that He reveals Himself in us in our inner soul when we worship and follow Him. Every great novel has an antagonist and a crisis. Some have several. Would it be worth the read without it?