Shallow, to me, is a waste of time. Deep matters to me. I prefer to press quickly through the shallow of physical and sometimes even mental to the deeper soul and spirit. This is why it has been easy for me to live people. When you look quickly into the deep of a person’s soul and spirit, you see God’s work, His fingerprints all over them, His deep love for them. And yes, you sometimes feel sorry that they cannot see it past what has happened to them in the shallow realm of physical and mental. And this is why we are lights… to help them see them as God sees them. The physical is inconsequential and temporary and weak. It needs constant stroking and encouragement. While deeper, thr soul and spirit long for freedom and union with their Creator. Deep Calls to Deep. Deep is beautiful and should always be our goal. If the deep is on the right track with God, everything else is healed and falls into place. ❤
My husband and I just had a deep conversation (not unusual). We were discussing who we as human beings are, what we are made of, and what changes in our life. And here is our discussion and thoughts summed up. Here goes:
We (people) are comprised of these parts, in this order:
1. Physical body
2. Our mentality and thought processes.
3. Our soul.
4. Our spirit.
When we are born and as long as we remain immature, we stick with thr physical selves, which can be selfish and always is taking care of staying alive and wants and needs. As we grow and hopefully mature in life, we develop and give prominence and power to the mentality, a higher function which considers others around us also and consequences, memories, etc. Then as we further mature and develop, we give prominence and power to our soul, where we have a greater idea of who God made us to be and our connectedness to the spirit, with built in personal identity in the bigger picture of God’s kingdom. And the highest goal of maturity and growth and development is to give prominence and power to the spirit in intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit/Source of Goodness and Love.
We can screw this up by opening the spirit to evil spirits inadvertently and ignorantly (or willingly) via the physical or mentality. We can and so screw it up by remaining immature.
How do we shift to the goal of spiritual prominence and connectedness to the Holy Spirit/Good/Love? We read the Bible and pray and start to incorporate its values into our lives until we can be humble enough to let God transform us and shift us to this new form. And when it happens, it is beautiful.😄❤
When I am weak, and I realize now that I always am, I take up humility, admitting how little I really am in the scheme of things. And when I put that humility on, I am doing something admittedly and undeniably stronger than most people of the world. Their pride and ego rules them and makes demands of their conscience. Humility realizes that God will have His way no matter what and puts me under His will alongside Him. The really clever part of all this, the weaker I am and the littler I get, the stronger God makes me in His kingdom. And the part of that that is most incredible to me is not the irony of it, not the juxtaposition against the world’s ways… it is that the almighty God of the universe loves me and wants me with Him. Wow. The children’s song “Jesus Loves Me” is the most incredible truth of the Bible and how deep His love is was proven by His death, burial and resurrection. And God loves every person He made the same. Even really horrible people, even me who was among the worst of them. Even me who screws up now, knowing this. How little I am and how amazingly big He is. And I truly reverence Him, respect Him, love Him. God is everything that is best and most important in every capacity of life in the universe He made. How incredible and deep this truth is. How my mind loves to dip my toes in the surface of it and watch the ripples of it wash me clean again. How precious and tender is our Almighty Creator. How little are we, especially me. It makes Him even bigger. God is so good!❤❤❤
I get lost in deep thoughts, profound ponderings, all of various themes and levels of depth. And just as my mind is verging on a solution to cancer or world peace or even more important the salvation of souls, I am interrupted with “Mom, I am hungry” or “Where are you?” Or “I need you”. The shallow needs of life my family wants from me, wants to live in. My son will delve into the depths with me sometimes but the exception rather than the rule. The shallow has always bored me, wasted my time, broken my visions, torn me away from meaningful to menial. Most people, I find, prefer shallow, fearful of the deep somehow, fearful of their ideas sounding weird, not understanding that the deep remains eternally while the shallow will disappear. The deep is everything. The deepest deep is God. I want Him. I want to delve into deeper understanding.and worship. This is never boring. This is what it is about. Everything is God. It all should be about and for Him. I am caught in His deep. ❤❤❤
My body has longed for things and people I should never have longed for. And that is a shallow, emotional matter which requires the help of God via self-control. I am not speaking of that otherwise. I wish to speak of the deep longings of the soul, the spirit. Most churches/pastors/society denies our depths in favor of the easier and more palatable surface/body/shallow/physical issues. Easier, lazier to deal with. Obvious. A moron speaks of such things without ever going deeper. The deeper longings of our soul and spirit are where our shallow stuff comes from. It is the why we do what we do. If we auchddress the behavior but never they why, there is a huge chasm in relatability and practicality and intelligence there. We have to go deeper to grow in spiritual maturity and deeper relationship with Christ. It just has to happen. So we have to ask ourselves heavier questions? “Why was that a temptation?”, “What made that desirable?”, “Why does that bother/anger/trigger me?”, “What do I need that I am not getting?” are all questions to start digging with. Sometimes we get stuck on anger comfortable, familiar lie that got stuck in there and replayed so long we take it as truth and it is tripping us up. For example, every guy I dated told me I was fat and criticized my appearance. So I took that as fact. I was unlovable because I was fat. Every guy. But I started digging. Why does it bother me what guys think? What do I need? And it turns out I have a deep desire and longing to be loved and accepted as I am, secure in love. And I was drawn to men who were critical because I was raised with criticism and that was a comfortable lie that I had nothing but flaws. The thing is, once I realized where I screwed up, I could correct it and if guys started criticizing, bye bye. I adndccepted not going to be comfortable around lies again. And further, I repented of that sin and sought out God to be.my loving security and His perfect love is the only kind that loves me as I am. See, God is Who I needed the entire time. ❤❤❤
Deep people show their depth in their eyes. They are quieter, studiers, wonderers. Deep people ignite passion within their souls by their focus. They find beauty in the simplest thing, they find richness in the quietest scene, they find purpose in a simple arrangement. They search out the why and how and what else and do not rest their minds until they have dug deeper that previously. Investigators, really. Deep people think and study more than idly babble. Small talk is almost avoided altogether, uncomfortable in the very least because most so not go deep enough and in mind at least deep people always go deeper, need answers, need motivations and purposes. Deep people need to live at a spiritual depth and function spiritually, speaking with God. Deep people do not search out beauty but see it every and anywhere as it lies. How do I know these things? I am deep so from experience. Also from intensive scrutiny of others who share the urgency of depth as a second heartbeat. ❤
It is difficult for me lately to be in the shallow end. I am feeling more myself, grieving my heavy emotional losses seems to be easing up enough for me to be myself again, though I still don’t laugh as freely as I once did and I cry at the drop of a hat now. But I am myself enough to think deeper. The shallow end, the light exterior detail stuff, rather bores me, there is no meaning or purpose there. What people look like, what I look like, what colors I am wearing, the size of someone’s hat or cool tattoos, all of it is not valuable to me anymore. I want to see their soul. I want them saved. I want to help them. The shallow end holds no joys or can hold none of my attention for long anymore. I want to live deep, be deep. I have always been incapable of small talk. I learned some during dad’s illness because I could communicate and entertain my detail oriented daddy that way. I learned and adapted. Now that he graduated to heaven and the sadness for not having him is being replaced by the happiness of him being with Jesus, I am tossing the shallow to the air in preference to the deep. I again long for the why. I deeply desire the journey as much as the destination. I long for the motivation and mission statement and relational news about the spiritual aspect of every person crossing my path. I want to know so I may help. I want to help save or encourage or uplift or lighten or heal or whatever I can do. It is how I particularly am cut. In ancient past, I believed it was because I was an aquarian, the humanitarian weird big picture healers of the world. Now I realize it was simply God’s design of me. And somehow, against all earthly odds, He blesses me and wants me to do what I was designed to do and worship Him. Amazingly, He loves me that much. Incredibly, He has forgiven my screw ups and has decided to keep me as His baby. Wow. And in actuality, God feels that way about you too. You and I are so very loved and I am so very thankful for that! 🙂