On Down the Road

I decide to go walk with my daughter.

I decide not to helicopter my spouse.

I decided his choices are his.

I decided to stay close to God.

I decided to walk with my daughter rather than police my spousal rights.

I decided to pray and let God work.

I decided policing him has been policing me.

I decided to be free.

I decided God avenge all wrongs against me.

I decided not to myself.

I decided to go walk with my daughter.

I decided right for her is my greater right.

I decided.

It is beautiful.

It is peace and joy from God.

I am free.

Free is beautiful.❤

Judging Revisited

I cannot judge another soul for I am as guilty at everything as they are. Sad but true. Just because I confess all to God and have repented and forgiven as instructed frees me of the guilt and purifies me. But I am just as corrupt as the next guy or gal apart from Jesus’ salvation. So I cannot judge anyone. That is God’s job. If I am wronges, I cannot judge them but can object and bring it to their attention so they know they have wronged me. Then the ball is in their court and they have a chance to change. If they refuse, I have a choice to keep putting up with it and keep forgiving g indefinitely and pray for them (which I currently am) or disassociate myself from them. Am I any better than them? No, I am just as capable of sinning and have to repent daily and keep praying for forgiveness. But because I humble do this, I am better off, for I have peace. I may never be happy with the situation of continuous wrong done to me daily but I have joy under it, legs of hope to stand on, and this beautiful opportunity to grow my humbleness. And I am all the better off for it. ❤

Bleaching Houses

Every year, my mom’s house becomes an ugly mold and mildew greenish color, the result of warm rain in Florida. And this year, I bleached her house. Her whole house. In one day. With bleach, a hoze and a ladder. Up, down, up, down, reach, stretch, miss the windows, so on. Took the whole day. I was sore, hungry, thirsty (because I forgot to drink and worked through lunch), tired. And got yelled at. Got home and had to do dishes and cook and laundry. And this is my life now. Once I was a career woman, a doctor who worked for a good amount of money and then came home and did life. Now, life abounds with needs that I seem to be the only one that can do them. And am I whining? Maybe a bit, but I do have a bigger point. I would not trade this humbling family life for any amount of comfort and money. Not millions of dollars, not trillions (although I would pay off our national debt with that lol), not for whatever is bigger than that. I would rather be a humbled me- a mom, a wife, a teacher, a keyboardist in a band, a Sunday School teacher, a friend- than a face locked onto a cell phone, career driven proud woman who misses the whole point. Who I am is meaningless without eternal value. What I do is idiotic if I work my life away for the temporary. My identity is absurd without locking into what God made me to be, what He sees my priorities to be. I am nothing without my Creator. And I am close to Him when I obey and humbly trust Him. Then, when humble and obedient and trusting, I am a fierce woman of God and absolutely nothing can move or shake me unless He allows it for my growth or His glory. And prayer and Bible reading keep me connected.❤

God is in No Danger

Atheists cannot diminish God’s greatness or especially existence by denying it. They have no power to do this. Saying something or even believing something that is not true will never make it true. God the Son, Jesus Christ, will always be our only Source of salvation and God the Holy Spirit our only Source of guidance and comfort and God the Father our only Source for eternal peace and joy and existence with Him. No amount of ignoring Him or those truths will diminish that truth. No amount of saying a lie or distracting yourself to the point of moronic nauseum will change the validity of that truth. Just as no amount of denying hell,s existence will prevent those who deny God from going there. And why on earth would anyone separate themselves from the eternal lasting love of God Who matters most? This is why God says in Psalms “A fool says in his heart there is no God.” Only a fool could deny Him Who made us all. And only a fool chooses death to life.❤

Different Emphasis with Time

Being 40+, much of what I have focused on through life getting here did not really signify. Much would have no lasting value, no eternal component, just distraction and noise. Much I walked over or through very quickly should have been explored, deepened, much more time spent because of its eternal component. There is here and now which is survival for the moment and there is here and now which affects your eternity. As you mature, you realize this and plan the next steps more thoughtfully. Really getting this would have changed so much of my behavior and choices from then, which is theory and bears no relevance to the now. However, knowing this makes the now much more meaningful as an opportunity to put this valuable wisdom into practice. Think of the eternal before attempting to act or speak. ❤