Bandages in Recovery

Ending my addiction was a great gift of mercy and grace from God. I was blessed in my life to have loving people who prayed for me regularly and God answered their faithful prayers. I feel it is a gift every day to be in recovery.

However, it is not easy. I made tons of messes along the way while I was busy being a selfish addict- which all addicts are- and bandages have to be ready to apply all the time. God forgave me and I have recently also forgiven me. But, I made many bad choices that people are not so easy to forgive because they seriously hurt them. I have to try to heal relationships with my kids for one. I have given them years of bad parenting- I did my best and tried to love them but was a secret selfish addict and that always affects innocent children for years. Trying to do my best now is hard because I am not sure how to do all this while feeling everything. I have come a long way but have very far to go. I need a lot of bandaids ready at a moment’s notice and hope and am praying that my kids don’t take up addictions to temporarily mask their pain. They never last long and God is a much better, healing choice for true freedom.

I have to give myself grace while feeling very alone. My saving grace is having a relationship with the Lord. I trust Him and He takes care of me. I am trying to figure out how to do things. So I keep putting on bandaids and pray for God’s deep healing in their lives and mine as we keep going in recovery. Praise God! I am so thankful to be in recovery! God is so good!😃❤️

Praying Over our Kids

Do not hesitate to pray over your kids. In fact, loving prayer is never a bad idea. Yesterday, my teenage son was hormonal and angry, being passive aggressive to my daughter and I, just not himself at all. I know he has some unforgiveness which shows up when hungry, tired and hormonal. We all have some demon or natural bent we fight. So I went up to him gently and laid hands on him and prayed. The result was immediate. He at first pulled away but as I kept pouring truth in love and gentleness over him, he softened and anger subsided and as I asked forgiveness for those who wronged him long ago, his anger subsided. Do not hesitate to touch and pray over your children. Who else will? It holds an eternal value.❤

Art, Children & A Party

Today we combine three of my favorite things… art, children and a party. What is better than that? We will honor my daughter’s anniversary of her birth with little friends and art and a good time. How magnificent! I really believe these are also some of God’s favorite things. I don’t believe he made us to be unhappy and alone. So the fun party goes right along with His intentions for us. We hj on or Him and His design together. And art, God is the ultimate master of. He obviously appreciates diversity, color, uniqueness, textures, all things gloriously beautiful. So obviously art is a celebration of His endless skills and He enjoys it. And of course His heart is children. They are the perpetuation of His creation. They are unique masterpieces of His design and vulnerable so He loves them dearly. So we celebrate our Maker today as we celebrate things He loves and designed so perfectly. This is a beautiful day. Yay!!!!😄❤

Simple Joys with Children

So, this week we had VBS (Vacation Bible School). I helped with the Kindergarten class. We had a lot of kids and had moat of them all week long. They had a great time. At first, I dreaded working with so many young kids I was not used to or knew at all, thinking it would be just chaos. It wasn’t, it was refreshing instead. Kids that young just enjoy life, they spread joy and love, they explore and learn, they want to know. It was simply joyful. Thank you, God, for the joy you set before us and allowing that taste of purity and joy that will be in heaven. ❤