Another Hurricane Coming

So, it seems Lady Irma has not.been gone quite 2 years and here comes Dorian. Well, what should we do? Panic? Buy everything n in the store? Talk about it and worry with it endlessly? Buy a boat? Leave the state?

I say no.

I say pray (with fasting if able), prepare what you can and rest in the Lord’s loving, strong arms.

I learned from Lady Irma that God is stronger than any hurricane. That will always be true just like it always has been true.

So, let’s be the light in this world and remain calm, pray (and fast if able), prepare what we can calmly, and rest in the loving strong arms of the Lord. He is so good!❤

The Calm Before the Busy

So today, God gave us a great worship – filled morning at church with our church family. Then we went swimming after lunch and came home to relax. Not clean, not do stuff, just relax. Then I made this cheesecake for my family…

And I feel very blessed to have this calm day. Tomorrow starts two months of busy. I have 7 consults tomorrow in Haines city, a bit of a drive, then baseball. After that, it really gets busy for we are watching our 1 year old grandson and doing everything else we do regularly. So, here is something sweet for my kids and husband who will be in the busy with me for the next two months. I am prayed up, let’s do this!😄❤

Peace in the Storm

I knew I had experienced calm for too long. It was coming. I was not anxious but braced. And through this day’s storms, I maintain my peace and joy because God helped me and has given me that gift. What storms in particular all happened today? I will tell me if you agree to pray for me specifically about them.

1. We had to attend a viewing of my sister-in-law who passed two days ago.

2. While at the viewing the dog pushed through a screen window and got out I had to leave the viewing and go home, return him home and return to the viewing.

3. My daughter came down with a horrible fever and the flu right before the viewing.

4. We discovered a localized-for-now infestation of termites in our home- oh no.

5. Saw my ex on the way to the viewing.

Needless to say, while in mourning the death of a loved one, a lot has happened in this one day. And up to yesterday, we had been experiencing a long calm. So here is the storm.

And I have complete peace and joy and feel fully loved. It is all in God’s hands because I put it all there. I have peace in my storms today. God is way bigger than any storm. I am not worried. I did everything I could do after the best thing, which is pray, and then I prayed again after doing my part. Peace is upon me. I am drenched with it. And I am fully thankful for it. God is exceedingly good, friend. ❤ ❤ ❤

Calm in the Wait

Waiting used to be excruciating for me. I really had an enormous problem with patience. It took many hard and difficult (seemingly impossible at the time) lessons to learn it. Now, I have finally learned the lesson that God wanted me to learn long ago to wait on Him in His peace. And it all started with really grasping that the awesome God of the universe loves me and is truly always here with me. Why am I in a hurry? I am with God everywhere I am. I can rest in His love anywhere and wherever I am, no matter what I am doing. And so I have grown up a lot and am definitely calm and at peace in the wait. I wait with the Lord and for Him. What more could I want?❤

The Calm Voice

When out driving with my friends way back in high school, we left our destination after dark in the winter in Michigan. One wrong turn after another and we were lost. I have this intrinsic ability God gave me for direction and the gift of calm during crisis. Kevin was driving and I was sitting behind him next to 3 friends and there were 2 passengers in the front. Everyone was panicking and yelling for poor Kevin to go this way and that, the whole spirit of confusion was strong. And I casually, calmly was whispering directions to Kevin and he was listening to me and turning as I instructed, adding fuel to the yelling of the others. When we were out of the lost part and back to the easily familiar close to home, the car settled. Everyone got as quiet as we ever got and they praised Kevin for the success asked Kevin why they didn’t listen to them. He said, “I listened to Tonya because she was the only calm voice.” And I thought of that story with the whole rapture date predictions. Jesus said no one knows the day or the hour. I mean, you can feel something coming. The whole world seems uptight and ramping up. But I read my Bible and am ready whenever Jesus comes for us who love Him passionately and the rest I dismiss and listen to the calm, still small voice of the Holy Spirit who only speaks truth. The noise is not God. God is peace. He is the truth in calm. Praise God! ❤ ❤ ❤ 

A 5-K, Consulting, Ditch Digging, a pool1 & Chicken in One Day

I had a bizarre and pretty exhausting day today. I am certain you are quite interested in it lol. Thank God, I started it off with a fast 5-K walk (my knees told me I cannot jog anymore) and a long prayer with my God, how I love Him! Then came two audiologic consults, reminding me that I am a doctor and can still help people. Then lunch and home for ditch digging and dressing (with concrete and river rocks) continued. Cleaned up from that and headed to the pool with the kids then grabbed chicken for supper on the way home. Had to hit two gas stations for filling up the tank as the first station was out if gas. They are price gouging because of the hurricane (as bad as lawyers, benefitting from people’s terror) and should be penalized for it, but I digress. Then showers and now about to hit the sack. I am wiped out. However, I am still alive and healthy and at peace. You see, when I start the day with the Lord I love so very much who loves me, the whole day is set in the right tempo and peace and joy mix to allow all the things flying at me to not stick. It is like a good prayer life with God is a good grease that the crud flying at us cannot dig into or stick to. The peace and joy and hope remain in tact all day. That is the secret, friends. Even in ugliness and abuses and selfishness surrounding and threats of catastrophes, God holds me closer than I can hold Him and sustains, provides for, loves and nd protects me. It is beautiful. On the busiest days, calm prevails. Beautiful!! Thank you, God! ❤❤❤

Far from Calm Tonight

Up late, something is missing. Peace is missing. Stillness is absent. Calm is not a resident of my mind. There is in its bed an imposter, named unrest. He has taken up residence because of the void in my mind created by a person missing. There is a disconnect now that is like an open wound, a sore spot, a place where once there was and now there is not. Stillness had a bad day and has morphed into chaos in my mind. Something drives me to find peace, a peace that is there under somewhere, the foundation of the mind’s house. That helps but there is so much distraction that clarity is a phantom, here one moment and gone the next. Too many invasive conversations, child rearing, doubt, sadness, teaching, caretaking, disappointing and inadvertently rejecting a close friend without realizing it until too late to act, skepticism, wonder at life, feelings of unimportance, trust in God, lack of trust in people, missing members of the family at practice, technology and its dangers, messing up so many things and so on, the mind roams among the various topics and others. It continues to pace the floors, sure of its footing because of the peace there but still unsure of where to rest its head or how to heal what was damaged. Sorrow, yes that is her name. Sorrow moved in without permission and laid down her head for the night. Sorrow came in response to watching my fading father, wounding a very dear and loved friend, missing a family member at practice, and inadequacy in so many areas. I am strong for so many people. I am strong for no one. I feel depleted. Yes, sadness crept in. Depression is threatening to enter as well. But no, there are too many here already. Uninvited guests responding to real problems. I must kick them out of this house so rest and stillness and calm can return and dwell here. I reach for the only tools and comfort I have. My friend cannot be here for me and maybe wouldn’t want to. So I get out the Book of comfort. I read Psalms where David cried out to God for help with sadness. I figure it is the only Person in my life I have access to right now. I need arms and understanding and forgiveness and have two of those from God. No one else offers right now, deep into the night. No one else is here in this room or awake in the house but me and God. So I will fall into His love. I rest in Him. I ask Him and He kicks out the unwanted guests. As I focus on and converse with God, the frightened guests slip out unnoticed one by one. And God calls back in my normal residents.