Battling a Grizzly

I would say humbly that I am like a Grizzly bear in many ways. I am smart, strong, resilient, will destroy anyone who messes with my kids, cuddly looking but maintains a distance, so on. This is humble knowing who I am, not bragging.

I watched a documentary on wolves taking down a grizzly. They were no match individually but together ganged up and kept at it little bit by little bit.

This is what I think is going on here in my life and many other Christians I know and know of. Those of us in close loving relationship with Jesus Christ know full well that nothing on this planet is too hard for us with God’s help. So the enemy does not boldly come against us. Oh no, he is a coward as all bullies are, and worse a coward that is already defeated. So instead of straight on, we get ganged up on and nipped at by this distraction or this little attack on a close friend, this attack on a family member, this task to do, this mission to take on, this person to care for, this spousal attack, this extra work at your job, etc. Until you are worn out to the point of ineffectiveness.

And now that I realized the game, with the power of the Holy Spirit, I can start getting out of it. I can say no to this, give that burden to God to carry, pray about then leave this situation, read more of the Word, sing and play worship songs until I am effective for Christ. Yes, we are called to act, but we also must encourage others to pick up their slack too so one person isn’t doing all the work. That was never God’s plan or will for us. God bless us everyone.❤

Oh What a Difference a Choice and a Night Makes

So, we begin our story on a busy day yesterday. So busy, I barely stopped moving all day. We tried to do homeschool while watching our 9 month old grandson who was ill, with meals and dishes and she decided to go get gas and shop at Target before picking up her sick baby and so without dinner or anytime to change we raced over to my son’s baseball game, got home late and got to bed late. And I was anticipated the same craziness today but with band practice instead of baseball and PE in the morning. Crazy, right?

Instead, I am just headed to sleep and I get a “Mom!” from my son. Unusual and never good, I get in there and I will not gross you out but I had a lot of cleaning up to do. He was suddenly sick. He is hardly ever sick but he had saved up. He must have eaten something awful from the canteen at baseball. It cleared his entire digestive system. Water wouldn’t stay down. All night long it was clean up, try to sleep, awoken up in a couple hours to clean up and nurse the boy.

I made an executive decision and texted to cancel PE and the babysitting today. And I slept a few hours before the next bout. And here we are. Sleep deprived but at least able to sleep a couple hours at a time between nursing the gut along toward healing and cleaning. Lord help us moms!

So “oh what a night” is explained. Next explains the choice.

My son had, in the morning when he was supposed to be doing school and up to now has been, decided to play hooky and watch a Netflix movie that happened to be a horror flick. What possessed him, I know not, but I believe it opened a door to an evil spirit to come in. He confessed to me at night when everything that could go wrong n in a day did go wrong. Because as soon as he had finished that movie around noon, the baby who had been well was suddenly sick, the game went poorly and my son played like he had never played a game in his life, my husband was very aggitated and grumpy, my daughter was an emotional wreck, I was suddenly overwhelmed and tired, and then the illness.

Upon seeing the demonic activity allowed in and hearing the confession, we joined hands and rebuked the demon in Jesus’ powerful name and Zac rede dictated his life to Jesus and was baptized in the Holy Spirit and rejected his choice and evil that was pressing on him. I prayed over the house and loudly commanded the evil to leave in Jesus’ name and pleaded God’s Holy Spirit to live here and bring us the fruits of the Spirit in abundance to reside here.

He did. All was immediately made right. My daughter had peace and fell into a deep, restful sleep she stayed n in through the night’s ups and downs. My husband relaxed and had peace and even joy. I received energy and peace. Zac had peace even though he had to undergo a reminder purging of his system. And the baby is not here today but is doing better.

The devil will come in any way he can and is allowed- be it horror movies, pornography, personal choices of pride, sexual misconduct, gluttony, idolatry, whatever it is- even to Christian homes. He must be sent packing by the authority we have with the Holy Spirit. And we must make it right by humbly choosing Jesus again. Please learn this lesson with us. Be encouraged that we have the cure through the Great Physician Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit. Praise God!!❤❤❤

Lack of Problems is Not the Goal

So, ya don’t want any problems? Join the club. The goal in life is not to get through it without anything happening. Not only is that literally impossible but horribly boring and leads to spoiled, self- centered boring immature brats sitting about, wanting to be waited on.

We are alive to serve and worship God.

Trouble comes because God loves us enough to grow and mature us and show us His love for us by caring us through everything. We grow, we mayure, we develop into people who serve and worship God through trouble. Unfortunately there is sin in this world and we are stubborn with pride so learning has to happen through trouble.

The best thing we can do is not avoid trouble but be contrite and learn the lesson quickly and get quickly to serving and worshipping God. ❤

The Blowing of the Wind

Wind is powerful force. It tests your resolve. It weathers you. It breaches the inner fibers of your soul to determine its worth. The Blowing of the Wind can shake us to the core. And sometimes that is the test. To whine and live in a past that no longer exists and a thinking too much of oneself is a failing of that test. Self-pity is a failing of the test. Internal struggle is sometimes even a failing of that test. The wind erodes the unimportant and weak and leaves behind the valuable and strong. Wind is a blessing. Nothing grows us faster than the wind as it blows. Of course it shows true colors, blows away hot air, reveals truth. I do not fear the wind anymore. I know full well that my Father God is stronger than any wind we can face. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is my rock, refuge, fortress, my everything. And He commands the wind. It obeys Him without question. Cling to Jesus. Let the wind blow where it will. ❤

Peace in the Storm

I knew I had experienced calm for too long. It was coming. I was not anxious but braced. And through this day’s storms, I maintain my peace and joy because God helped me and has given me that gift. What storms in particular all happened today? I will tell me if you agree to pray for me specifically about them.

1. We had to attend a viewing of my sister-in-law who passed two days ago.

2. While at the viewing the dog pushed through a screen window and got out I had to leave the viewing and go home, return him home and return to the viewing.

3. My daughter came down with a horrible fever and the flu right before the viewing.

4. We discovered a localized-for-now infestation of termites in our home- oh no.

5. Saw my ex on the way to the viewing.

Needless to say, while in mourning the death of a loved one, a lot has happened in this one day. And up to yesterday, we had been experiencing a long calm. So here is the storm.

And I have complete peace and joy and feel fully loved. It is all in God’s hands because I put it all there. I have peace in my storms today. God is way bigger than any storm. I am not worried. I did everything I could do after the best thing, which is pray, and then I prayed again after doing my part. Peace is upon me. I am drenched with it. And I am fully thankful for it. God is exceedingly good, friend. ❤ ❤ ❤

Nehemiah 4:14-16

Nehemiah 4:14. ‘After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.” 15. When our enemies heard that we were aware of their plot and that God had frustrated it, we all returned to the wall, each to our own work. 16. From that day on, half of my men did the work, while the other half were equipped with spears, shields, bows and armor. The officers posted themselves behind all the people of Judah’❤

I love this verse because it is so applicable to life now. God has given each of us a job personally and our President a job nationally to build a defense wall to keep bad people out. Everyone trying to build a wall to keep bad people out are met with violent interference, whether a physical violence or a use or words or emotional turmoil. The enemy is working overtime to get in and destroy us. We must, as Nehemiah did, proclaim our right to defend ourselves under and with God’s protection and keep working with added guards. Keep fighting but be ready for battle. Do not ever give up, it is not an option. Keep on and rely on God and call to Him for help every step of the way. He always provides. ❤

Rebuilding Contemplations 2 Years Ago

2 Years ago, I lost my daddy. I lost the man that loved me most in the world and who was always there for me. I also lost a liar friend that swore love to me and my family and just rejected us and split. (All is forgiven and we still love you, just recapping my pain of 2 years ago.) I also lost a friend my age in a car accident suddenly at the same time. Two years ago, I was a mess, a pitiable disaster shell of a girl… broken to understate it. The strongest crumble hardest when broken.

Absolutely, that was a defining moment of my life. Absolutely, that completely impoverished soul of mine was the means of God finally breaking this pride in me down to ashes and rebuilding a humble me. It was the best thing that ever happened to me spiritually, in light of eternity. Because now, as I keep choosing God to be my strength and keep humbly close to Him, even living with frequent opposition and injustice, everything keeps me humble and closer to God.

And now I am strongest of my life because I am weakest and God is able to work through me. This, my friend, is beautiful. I am thankful for two years ago and reflect upon it thoughtfully and often. I still get emotional but it is always tempered with joy and peace now. If you are going through a lot now, take heart. Hope is in Jesus always and with love. Don’t be afraid to break for Him and He will rebuild you way better. God is so very good!!❤❤❤