Less Affected

The closer I am in relationship with God, the less I am affected by bad things happening. I am not saying that fewer bad things happen… that would be ridiculous to say. In fact, the enemy comes against Christians far more and with a vengeance. What I am saying is that it affects me less when I am closer to God, reading His Truth in the Bible as much as possible, praying, worshipping, just being with consciously. God gives peace and joy and the more time spent with Him and His goodness, the more the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control) take prominence in my character. This provides security and hope and beautiful assurance that no one can separate me from the love of God ever. Fasting makes this more clear but so does time and spiritual maturity doing the right thing in keeping in the Bible and prayer and fellowship with Christians.❤

Been a Rough Day

I won’t lie. I have been tired all day, took a 2 hour nap after the morning school routine and woke up still tired with a headache. Thoughts of loved ones gone going throughy head. I miss those people I loved so long. Rough day. But one thing I know. Everyone has bad days, either because of past remembrances or recent mistakes or demonic attacks or other people’s bad decisions, and that happens universally. But, and that is a very big “but”, I know my Redeemer. I am His friend. And Jesus walks with me, God is always with me. I am never alone on hard days or good days. I am never ever alone. And when no one is here to love or hug me, God is here to comfort me. He never changes. Not ever. And I am God’s daughter. So it’s all good and tomorrow will be better. (But even if it isn’t, it’s still all good.)❤

Always Loved/Romans 8:38-39

Romans 8:38. “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39. neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Assurance/Psalm 23

Psalm 23:1. “The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3. he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. 4. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”

My confidence in in God’s ability and live for me, not in my own abilities, which ebb and tide. I trust my Rock, my Shepherd.

Thrown Away

Thrown away, the soul dejected

Lost, alone, the heart does cry

The fit of loss is hard lifted

The burdened pain of love passed by.

And yet is hope, I hear it singing

Fading in from miles away

Call of trump and future mansion 

Jesus beckons me to His day.

Never think a loss is wasted.

Never wonder at pain you bear.

Bow in prayer to One who know all

And think on Him and He is there.❤

Never Alone; Trust God!

Peace & Assurance

“You lay your hand on the fluttering heart, and say ‘Be still!’… Your presence is with me, and where You are, I never fear an ill.”~Frances R. Havergal 

Jesus understands our human stuff because He is God who lived as Man and gets our pain and sorrow and joy from living it. He gets us. He knows all about it. He loves us passionately. So we are never alone ever unless we are too proud to accept His company, His loss for us, His gift of understanding. We have this assurance: His love for us is purposeful and complete. As soon as we humbly pick it up, we may have it. Beautiful!!! ❤❤❤

Security

Being actively involved in the process of my mom working through my dad’s illnesses, including dementia and strokes. Finances had to be changed, titles had to be changed, Power of Attorney had to be assigned, social security had to be worked through and with, daily tasks of caring for him before the nursing home had to be performed, and it was all I could do at times to keep breathing much less homeschool my kids and care for the dog. Then when mom broke her hip too, my mind is still recovering I think. It was constant, ruled my life or what there was of it, everyone suffered I normally cared for. Now that the nursing home is covering dad’s day to day care and meds, etc., there is more time to enjoy visiting him and less to break the back caring for him. I hated the nursing home idea at first but now I see its value. But the point is not all of this about nursing homes, the point is that unexpected things happen in life. Life is constantly in a state of flux and things happen. These things are sometimes tests, sometimes punishments it seems, sometimes horribly limiting for whatever reason and when all of these things happen, security is shaken. You become uncertain where you were once certain. You question whose name things are in, not because of wanting control but just in case things happen like they did to mom. What if becomes a big question, a genuine, serious question and not a hypothetical. You wonder what you can be sure of. You ask more security questions in other areas, other relationship. You want to know standing, understand meaning, know your place and significance. When you don’t receive answers, you instantly have a choice to make. No answer becomes no security just as certain as a day off is short. Security now, see, means so much more. There is weight to the supposition. There is reality that has been experienced. You have crashed already and do not wish to relive that crash if possible. So security in my life has taken on a whole new level. Safety and security and risks are all important aspects of a real workable life and I am necessarily needing these things. Without assurrances and answers, I now see an expedient withdrawal wise. Without security, I do not feel safe anymore. I never cared about that pre-crisis. I was content to fly by the seat of my pants and wing it most of the time, loving the freedom of that. Now, I need security above that, the importance of things has shifted. And I see that as a point of sadness at times but also as a point of maturity and thankfulness because I can learn and be taught and apply that to my life to make it better and help more people in return.