Forgiving Someone Mean

Ok, so when we are followers of God, saved by Jesus Christ’s sacrifice, we are forgiven of our sins each and every time we humbly ask. This is because any sin in God’s eyes is the same. There is no big or little sin. Sin is sin, all is missing the mark, doing wrong, guilty, from the tiniest lie or laziness to murder and everything between. Sin is sin because God is holy. We are forgiven and made pure and sinless by humbly asking for it because of the perfect sacrifice Jesus was for us to have this right. So forgiveness is our gift, making us right with God and assured of heaven and being with God now and eternally. So here is the rub. We have been forgiven SO we are told that we will be forgiven AS WE FORGIVE others, even mean people, even people who ripped our hearts out, even people who are still mean, even people who are not the least sorry, even people who drive 10 miles under the speed limit and make us late, even people who hate us or slander us. And the extent to which we are forgiven is the extent to which we forgive. So I want to be forgiven fully. I want to stay close to God, the Life Giver, the Love. So I freely forgive every mean person who has hurt me. I forgive freely every pain received from another, every hateful or critical word, every callous person, every crime against me, then initiator of every broken heart. I forgive truly because I deserve to be released from their presence in my mind and I want to be forgiven. I forgive. And I beg forgiveness to anyone I have wronged. And that is how it works. There is a release and peace that comes. Good time to do that before Christmas. And you have to keep doting it because people continue to before mean and selfish and that is how it is. God will help too because He loves you and knows how good it is for you.❤

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Managing Band Children

I am the band mom. They say “manager” but that is false. My husband manages the band but I am the mom and gig-getter. That allows me to buffer the children, I mean men in our band and be diplomatic, do the work and heavy lifting, listen to the incessant whining, and yet have the luxury of being paid less and blamed for everything. But I wear big girl panties and can take all of it (meaning I pray a lot to a really big God). And my brief payoff is the exhilaration of making people happy and dance and the fun of all that and brief appreciation of the audience. So there are perks. Biggest one is playing with my husband and my band brother. And now my son is our paid roadie. That is sweet too. 

Love and Freedom

It is impossible to separate love and freedom. They need each other and support each other. In the presence of love, freedom has breathe and power. In the preaence of freedom, love inheritably exists. They work in cooperation and function in every way together. When someone is controlling, they are acting out of selfishness and/or brokenness and not love. Let me be clear, controlling and demanding behavior is selfishness-based and/or brokenness-based and NOT love-based. Bank on it. Also bank on love and freedom being connected. They always are and always will be. And that is why I love God so much!❤

Not Knowing

I just watched and listened to Red sing “The Dance” on the Voice. https://youtu.be/B50LXIoetlg I rarely ever get to see that show and enjoy everything but the back stories and commercials. (If they sing the song magnificently, you can feel their back story, but that is another blog post lol.) But I digress. The thing is the song reminded me that if we knew things would end, would we go through with it if it was going to end in a huge loss? I wrestle with that a little bit. Do good times for a while make up for a steep drop afterwards? Do great memories make up for the loss of a loved one? And I suddenly felt great appreciation to God for not letting us know everything. I am thankful to not know what is next (except heaven, I am glad to know that is coming up). I believe even more that God blesses us by withholding the future. We are who we are and hold beautiful memories we would otherwise miss by living the exact journey we walk, rest and run. Our journey is beautiful not just because of the good memories and good decisions but moreso because of deep blows we overcame with God’s help. I am happy not to know. I am thankful for every dance. ❤

Love

I am a love expert. Because of my doctorate? Nope. Because I am married? Nope. Because I have children? Nope. Because of my many years of intensive study of many patients and fellow humans? Nope. I am a love expert because I have been loved by Love, mentored by Love, fathered by Love, taught by Love, cradled by Love, instructed by Love. I understand love as much as I can at this moment and more than I ever have by my direct involvement and experiences with Love, the source of true love. I feel Love. I know Love intimately. And based upon these credentials, here is what I know to be the truth about love. Love is a free choice, not something fallen into or out of. Love is always a free choice. Love is patient, loving, kind, faithful, self-controlled, joyful, peaceful, good, gentle. Love is humbly putting others first. It is in direct opposition with the ego, the over-inflation of self. Love does not fail or give up, is always hopeful, endures all things, perseveres, supports, uplifts, encourages. Love never causes harm but extends itself outward to help at all times. Love is generous. Love is moral, chivalrous and noble by default. Love has empathy and compassion for those in need or broken or hurting. Love is very real and speaks only truth and benefit with freedom. Love is not in any way, shape or form controlling. It voluntarily gives up control to achieve service and assistance and compassion for another. Love does not demand, make uncomfortable, belittle, hurt, withhold, manipulate or try to mold into some other n identity. It simply is incapable of such selfish behavior. Love is fiercely passionate about life and protecting freedom of choice (of all people, no matter how great or small) and promotes God’s gifts in people. Love forgives freely and forgets willingly, holding no account of wrongs. Love keeps loving no matter what. That never changes. Love is beautiful and glorious. This is the accurate account of love in its pure and true form. This is love you can bank on, count on. This will always be true. And coincidentally, Love like this is what God is also. These are His character traits. Beautiful, isn’t He?❤❤❤

A Selfish Spouse

Our band brother was a passionate, wonderful drummer who loved drumming and was great to work with, our friend for 8 years. He married a selfish, narcissistic woman who made him quit the two bands he was in with us, church band and our band, and made him quit our church and disassociate with all of us. Recently, I found out she also made him sell all his drum kit too, and I am certain that was his therapy in dealing with her and life in general. This is an extreme example of a selfish spouse. She doesn’t want a life partner nearly as much as a servant or slave for life. It is pathetic and horrible and definitely not God’s design for marriage. In fact, masters are not even supposed to treat their servants so poorly. Ok, so I am writing this for two reasons. Wil, if you are out there, we all in your band family feel your pain and love you and believe in you both as a person and a great drummer. And people, when you marry, know that the other person matters as much as you do. You are to share love and respect and honor and support each other. Build each other up and not put them down, most especially their God given gifts because you will be punished for doing so. Love each other as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her. This self-sacrifice (not self-ishness) characterizes a true Christian. ❤ 

Thrown Away

Thrown away, the soul dejected

Lost, alone, the heart does cry

The fit of loss is hard lifted

The burdened pain of love passed by.

And yet is hope, I hear it singing

Fading in from miles away

Call of trump and future mansion 

Jesus beckons me to His day.

Never think a loss is wasted.

Never wonder at pain you bear.

Bow in prayer to One who know all

And think on Him and He is there.❤

Never Alone; Trust God!