We had more ups and downs today than you can imagine. I have a pre-teen, a teenager and a husband, all whose moods shift and flow like the tides. Happy one minute, angry the next, all looking to me for their happiness and needs to be met. I get phone calls out of nowhere to hire me. I get a dog attack me at the dog park as I walk in. I get yelled at for not having the kids ready for bed a full half hour before bedtime. I have attacks of my intelligence because someone forgot we are going to visit and help my Great Aunts tomorrow. I have a Sam’s Club run, which is exhausting and time consuming, and put things away. I am proud of having school done despite all these things in addition successfully with the dog park and an early 1.7 mile run and then be told I was a bad mother.
And yes, for once I was on a bit of a pity party and overwhelmed today. My usual steady peace and joy was stirred but not shaken. And all the way to my shower right before bed, I was tempted to run off to live in the woods somewhere.
Then something “no duh” happened to me that changed all that andbrough back my normal peace and joy at easy state. Was it a magic duck? Was it a special chocolate pie? Did I win a luxury cruise for one? Did a masseuse knock on my door? No, none of that. It was simpler and far more important.
I read my Bible and prayed. In doing so, I realized I had allowed in distraction and discouragemnt. It was my choice. I did not stand against it but allowed it in so in it came in droves. I forgot the most important thing is the most important thing… my constant line of communication and closeness to Jesus Christ. I dropped that precious ball onto my heart and it hurt.
So tomorrow, I start with my prayer run and Bible reading and keep the conversation with Jesus going all day. Tomorrow, I stand. Glad I figured it out before more days like this. Truth be told, I thank God for reminding me.😄❤