Struggling

When things are going well, look out. All was quiet for about a minute and internally peaceful with God’s love and grace and help. Still is really but seeing someone from my past pop up, someone I used to know every secret, someone who I obviously loved incredibly more than he loved me, who I haven’t seen in a long time, and now I am married to my husband and all is in the past. But seeing the face and hearing the name from a friend just reminded me of the weirdness and struggle with keeping focused on the now. It is easy for me to get distracted, my mind is always racing and God is the only one now who can focus me. And I had to refocus because it is strange to see someone you loved in the past out of nowhere when the loving someone now and being committed in marriage is happening. And I thought hard and really truly would not change a thing. If I had not gone through heartbreak, I would not realize fully God’s strength in restoring me and raising me from the dead. He saved me from myself, no question in my mind. I accept that everything happens for a reason, a blessing or a test, and that God gives grace when we fail the test if we ask Him and smiles if we pass the test. Tests must be. How else does anyone really know how they will respond in a specific situation if they are never in one. It is easy to say the right words without a struggle. When the struggle comes, you and God see what you are made of and infinitely more important what God is made of. How erasylse can we know with our tiny human minds? God has to show us. And I am so very thankful He chose grace for me and gave me a wonderful husband who takes such good care of us. I am content no knowing or contemplating the what ifs. What matters is the now. I choose God’s way and path for me. I am thankful for the blessings and thankful even more for the struggle. Pain is an impressive teacher sometimes if we are open to and decide to learn the leason. ❤

Isaiah 42

Isaiah: 42. 8. “I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not yield my glory to another or my praise to idols. 10. Sing to the Lord a new song, his praise from the ends of the earth, you who go down to the sea, and all that is in it, you islands, and all who live in them. 11. Let the wilderness and its towns raise their voices; let the settlements where Kedar lives rejoice. Let the people of Sela sing for joy; let them shout from the mountaintops. 12. Let them give glory to the Lord and proclaim his praise in the islands. 13. The Lord will march out like a champion, like a warrior he will stir up his zeal; with a shout he will raise the battle cry and will triumph over his enemies. 14. “For a long time I have kept silent, I have been quiet and held myself back. But now, like a woman in childbirth, I cry out, I gasp and pant. 15. I will lay waste the mountains and hills and dry up all their vegetation; I will turn rivers into islands and dry up the pools. 16. I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. – Bible Offline

1 John 2:8-10

1 John 2:8. “Yet I am writing you a new command; its truth is seen in him and in you, because the darkness is passing and the true light is already shining. 9. Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates a brother or sister is still in the darkness. 10. Anyone who loves their brother and sister lives in the light, and there is nothing in them to make them stumble.” – Bible Offline

The Joy of Weeding

Weeding is hard work. In small doses, it is small doses of hard work but never seems complete. It is character building work. It just is. You pull a weed, roots and all, and then in a few days, another little guy pops up there again and you have to do it all over. A lesson in futility.

But what of the results? Are they worth the effort? It is like every other menial chore like cleaning and washing dishes or laundry. Futile. Wash it then it gets dirty again. But. The results of doing it. What of that?

Maybe another view is that what if you don’t do it? What would happen? Thr world would not fall apart. But. Your space you are n in charge if would look like a disaster area in no time and that reflects on you and Jesus you represent. And the joy of weeding is the fruit, that after you have weeded, for that brief moment, you breathe a happy sigh and truly appreciate what God has blessed you with. That joy is worth the work. ❤

1 John 2:4-6

1 John 2:4. ‘Whoever says, “I know him,” but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in that person. 5. But if anyone obeys his word, love for God is truly made complete in them. This is how we know we are in him: 6. Whoever claims to live in him must live as Jesus did.’ – Bible Offline