Tides turn sometimes for everyone. They do not have to sink you. Get out of the boat and surf. Sure, it might be new. It might be crazy. It might hurt as you fall off once or twice, but once you master it with practice, every new wave that is bigger and bigger is more and more fun. Maybe you would have drown in the aame old same old boat you knew well but changing to a surf board takes effort and energy but eventually makes the waves fun and exciting and doable. Just a thought.