Tired Sometimes

I have a flaw. Several really. Ok, a lot of flaws. I am too honest and open. The problem is I see that as a good thing but most other people see it as horrible. Truth is, most people hate the truth now because it makes them feel guilty or exposes lies they would much rather believe or their feelings get hurt because so many they have packed around them because they coddled and encouraged them no matter how they acted. No, truth is tough for people to want around them these days. Another flaw is that I know people have flaws too around tend I am very well versed in my own but some I tire of, like unfaithfulness or disloyalty or addictions that come between couples or lies. I have a really hard time coping with these breaches in trust and it is hard for me to take and act like it doesn’t hurt me so much like it does. It is hard, for example, to feel like other naked women are just peachy for your partner or spouse to gawk and get off on on act consistent basis. Like that is good for the relationship. Like everyone should be happy about that. But I have flaws too. So am I expecting perfection when I am not able to deliver perfection and there is the rub. I question myself. Am I judgmental or fair? So, here is my answer. When I don’t know which way is morally right, I should see what the Author of morals says about it in His Book. Is it okay to get off on naked women other than your spouse? Nope. There are a lot of verses on fornication and adultery and not coveting someone else’s wife and stuff. So it is right to be upset about that. Also in there, is it right to judge someone else guilty of sins against you? Nope. Many verses also talk adultery bout not judging and not forgiving. So both are wrong. So, looking at it a different way, what do I do when wronged without becoming wrong myself? The answer is there to forgive and pray. God pays back wrongs and will forgive us the same way we forgive. That is it. It is a practice of letting go. Not trying to control someone else or how little they choose to love you back or understanding their coping mechanism is hurtful to you but makes them feel better for about what fifteen seconds. Obviously I need more work, but it is a start to know that I am flawed and so is everyone else and God is not at all. So when we feel flawed upon or when we have flawed upon someone else, God absolutely needs to be involved. God, I asndollm so sorry for any judgment I have passed onto anyone in my life. Please take this flaw and burden weighing heavily on me and help me be the best person I can be and help this person You and I love in what way they need. Please help me say the right thing at the right time or be quiet when needed and give me comfort and peace and joy. Thank You, mighty, loving and Holy God. And there it is. God bless us all! 

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